A Journey Beyond Reality

31/12/2011 - Totally Understood

2011-12-31T02:06:00.003+08:00

2011 has nevertheless comes to the end. And so does the best things in my life.

I'm such an emo girl right now. I didn't expect this would ever happen to me. You were someone who's the closest and dearest to me in my life right now. And you just left me sobbing without a note.

I such a dream breaker. We have so much dreams.

We plan to get married in a couple of years.

We plan to buy a house together. A home to be exact.

We wanted to travel around the world together.

We wanted to have babies together.

We wanna stick and grow old together.

We always wanting to have a future together. And all these beautiful little things had crashed by me pieces by pieces without mercy.

I don't deserve to have such a perfect boyfriend like you, Gim Hong.

You treated me like a princess.

You showed me love and care with your own unique way.

You called me whenever you're free.

You brings me laughter all the time.

You drive all the way from Klang just to see me.

You bought me lots expensive stuffs just to see me smile despite your financial difficulties.

You tried to change your temper for me.

You always stuff me with delicious food.

You baked & cooked for me.

and list goes on.

and most importantly you do it all without expecting any returns.

It melts my heart, totally.

I'm a lousy girlfriend. For god sake, I've made the same mistakes twice. I've never been matured and confident enough as i thought I am. I find faults all the time. But you will come back to me every single time, but this time, you've confused and started to back off.

However, the truth always lie flat. I knew this day would come that you finally wanna give me up.

I swear I never ever want to leave you, but i know you wouldn't happy to be with me. I chose to let go even though that would be my last ever option if i need to choose.

You're so dearly to me that I wanna see you smile sincerely deep from your heart and not pleasing me.

Forgive me for being so lousy, immature, jealousy, sensitive and stubborn. I know it's all over and done.

"我就是我我不完美，但我会因为简单的理由开心，我经常冒冒失失，碰到很多麻烦，我会失眠，我会内疚，我会伤心，会偶尔口是心非."

Sorry.

Love and cherish you always.

Drop Dead tired

2011-06-30T23:34:00.000+08:00

ICE Mobile

2011-06-18T13:33:00.004+08:00

Okay, since someone is dying to read my blog till the extend that stalking her everyday reading back her old posts again and again, and AGAIN.. =.=

you're cute, my dear.

There are two reasons of me blogging :-

1) I'm lifeless, and I don't wanna let others know about it so I blog whenever I have something interesting. :/

2) I need someone's attention badly. *double :/*

but now, that 2 reasons for me to blog is gone. All because of you. *wink*

So, now you know why I seldom blog after I met you?

okay, if there's still readers who still once a while dropped by, Thank you guys.. :D

I'm still the old me, loves eating and sleeping as always, still a cry baby, gaining weight like no body business, and most importantly, I'm now an working adult and I'm loving my job, my workplace and my colleagues. :D

Just so you know, I'm working in ICE Mobile Sdn Bhd located in Plaza Sentral as Account Executive. Basically dealing with sms business. Anyone who wanna blast SMS can always find me, we provides quality services and reasonable price. :D

Till then. :)

03.03.11

2011-03-02T21:14:00.004+08:00

Happy Birthday to my Bui Kia~~

Whee~ 生日快乐，建葑！

"May you be well & happy always,

May you have a healthy body all the time, *sho sho~ away all the virus n bacteria*

May you excel in your career, *earn more more money and let me spend yea! haha*

May you grow fatter and fatter! *pls no sumo!!!*

May you have more time to spend with me~

Hope you will sayang me more&more~

Hope you will fierce to me lesser&lesser~ :p

Lists goes on.. "

See how good am I, so many wishes for you on ur birthday.. XD

Btw, So sorry that I couldn't be with you on this meaningful day of yours (though you keep emphasizing it's nothing special) ish..

muacks... I can't stop~ I can't stop~ this Love~~ No matter what they say~ I Love You~~~

Happy 58th Dad!

2011-02-16T16:14:00.004+08:00

This picture was taken in one of the restaurant in Jalan Imbi before I leaving to UK last year.

I'm not sure whether my dad read my blog or not. Anyway, as you know, we Asian is kinda conserve in expressing our Love to our loved ones. So.... ahem..

"Pa, wishing you a Happy Birthday again. Thank you for bringing me into this beautiful world and raising me up for the past 22 years. I know i just couldn't Thank you and mom enough. You guys have been working so hard for the sake of this family. >.<*aiks.. it's actually a very long paragraph but don't know why it disappear* Anyhow, the last word i wanna say is I LOVE YOU DAD~!"

Till then.

February 4th

2011-02-04T22:39:00.002+08:00

Happy 2nd day of CNY~~
It's a very meaningful day for both of us.. =)
I LOVE YOU, LEE.. :p
Muacks..

Happy Bunny Year~~ Gong Xi Fa Cai!!

2011-02-02T21:29:00.005+08:00

Stole it from some1 without permission~ hehe.. ^^

Well, this year CNY is abit different from previous years. We had a small family dinner at home instead of having big Liew reunion dinner like the past years.

Couldn't deny that it's kinda dull with the only 1..2...3..and 4.. members. Missed the joy and laughters that we usually had with all the relatives around.. >.<>

Will be heading to temple soon. Happy Chinese New Year to those who celebrate it and Happy Holiday to the non-Chinese.. =D

有你真好!

2011-01-08T10:01:00.002+08:00

虽然，我们认识的时间不是很长。
但，却足以能够让我深深的迷恋上你。
就你说那样，这是缘分吧~

能够和你在一起，对我来说是一种福气（多年修来的perhaps?) :p
虽然我单身也有了一段时间，但和你在一起一点也并不陌生。
初恋的感觉很快就回来了。
我只想告诉你，我好喜欢你，好想永远永远和你腻在一起。

我好喜欢每天和你挂在电话上，谈些有的没的，听你说你有多么多么的想我。哈哈~
我好喜欢你对我撒娇，我的心整个都被你融化掉了，你懂吗？
我好喜欢你整天对着电话筒自唱，唱到走完音来逗我。苯蛋~ :p
我好喜欢你的幽默感，很废！可以跟周董拼，但离宪哥还有距离吧。加油哦！
我好喜欢你的细心与长周，让我有安全感，天涯海角我都会随你去。
我好喜欢你为我紧张的样，虽然每次你都很凶的跟我讲道理，我还是深深地被你这个‘野蛮’男友打败。 >.<

只想告诉你，
我很幸福，有你真好。

Beijing, I AM COMING!

2010-12-24T00:45:00.002+08:00

hmm.. last trip of 2010.
Will be back on New Year eve.
Shall set my New Year resolutions now? hmm.. but I'm so tired of thinking.. >.<
Anyhow, the best part about my life in 2010, 2 things:
1) I am officially graduated and had travelled around UK and Europe.
2) I have met my Mr. Right, yup. I'm in a relationship now. whee~

I will be missing him badly in this coming 1 week. :(
However, I am super glad that the first person that I can see when I landed will be him. And I will have him counting down Year 2011 with me. whee~ It really makes me a happy girl.. ^^

okay, it's time to bed now,
Good night World,
Good night Love..

I want a Puppy!

2010-11-30T21:25:00.003+08:00

I've always wanted to have a puppy since I was young.
But, mom never allows me to do so.
She dislikes dog and is afraid of the mess.
I've promised her that I would be fully responsible for that.
But still, she stands strong on her point.
:(

I always love the potluck season,
Apart from the foods and meet ups with all the relatives and cousins,
I can play with the puppies.
There will always be 2 Poodles and 1 Shih tzu.
Damn adorable I could say.

I'm so gonna get one when I'm financially stable.
Perhaps it would be the time where we owned a house together.
Hopefully he's a pet lover too.
Isn’t it sweet?
Just like the movie ‘Marley and Me’. A very emotional movie.. sobs..
Though it’s still a long way to go, but I’ll make this dream come true. :)
Maybe a Poodle for me, and a Golden Retriever for him? LOL.

F-R-E-E

2010-11-27T14:28:00.002+08:00

Whee... I'm officially unemployed now..

Just completed 1 of my failed CIMA paper last Thursday, saw alot of familiar faces that I met on last sitting.. >.<>

I wanna go for Jay's coming concert!

I wanna go for movie!

I wanna go Jogoya!

I wanna join back Celebrity Fitness.

I wanna go shopping cos most of my baju doesn't fit me anymore. :'(

I wanna get rid of my lemaks... @.@

I wan my body back to its shape...

sigh!

till then. continue my drama.. :)

Appreciation

2010-11-15T23:15:00.002+08:00

Had a chat with Daddy this morning, he was really depressed and disappointed with the issue facing by the Liew big family. Grandpa just passed away four years ago, and all the brothers and sisters starting to fight for their shares.

I thought this only happened in dramas, but I witnessed it on the other day. One of the sibling were shouted like a mad dog asking for appreciation for taking care of their father.

Appreciation is something that you EARNED for it.. and not something that you ASKED for it on what you've done.

You said you would rather die than taking care of him. Fuck you! I don't give a damn la whether you're my uncle or what.. just imagine your dad, my grandpa were there listening what you've said.. How would he felt? sigh~

It really scares me; Money is really a powerful beast.

I saw fine lines and wrinkles on dad's face. No more black and healthy hair but white and dry. Everything he does is for the sake of the big family but no one appreciate it. What they know is to wait for the money to reach their hand. sigh. I wonder will I be so materialistic when I've grown up? :(

Foods!

2010-11-10T00:21:00.000+08:00

Was exploring the Picasa software that I just downloaded.. and TA-DA!

These are all the foods that I cooked or ate when I was in UK. Though it might look bland or whatsoever.. But it's a great accomplisment for me ok. Someone who never need to worry what's-for-dinner for the past 22 years! LOL.

okay, back to study! :D

smiley face =)

2010-11-08T11:08:00.002+08:00

Well, some of my friends were so concerned about me regarding my previous post. You guys never know how important are those cheer up messages to me. It made me feel like I'm still 'some one' in this world. I'm not alone. Thank you!

Though I don't know who visited my blog. But I know they're still some body who cares for me, who wanna know how am I doing etc. Especially you. Yes you! Do leave me a message, and it'll definitely make my day! =)

For those who curious about my previous post, hmm.. make it simple. Both of us confronted each other, and we spurted out all our dissatisfactions. I hope things will eventually improve between both of us.

Currently addicted to Criminal Minds. Completed the 6th season and waiting for the release of new epi! ANTM is one of my current addiction too! arrgh.. I gotta start studying..

15 days left only..

My degree is like a shit, I can't afford not to pass my CIMA now.. Work hard for it LMJ! :)

I'm a bitch?

2010-11-03T15:28:00.002+08:00

I know I'm the bitch you're referring to. Seriously, I was being called as a bitch for the first time in my life. Yes, BITCH! Never in my life had I thought this would happen to me. I tried my best to be nice to everyone all these while. Though some times I felt tired of being overly NICE. People tend to taking advantage over me. But seriously, I don't mind as long as you don't cross the border of my patient level. But, BITCH! I was seriously heartache. Especially being called by you. The one who used to treat me like a princess..

Am I really that nasty to you?

I'm confused..

You said

"After so long, deep inside me, a tiny little bit of me wants to talk to you again, hence, all the apology and long-winded stories. Turns out, you're still the same."

What do you mean by I'm still the same? What you expect me to do? I tried to talk to you. I tried to ask you out. But how you responded me? The way you talked to me and the way you talk to others were totally contrast. It’s like I’m forcing you. Do you expect me to act like nothing, hypnotizing myself that you’re still the old you?

People are afraid of rejection. So do me.

I need encouragement. A LOT A LOT of it. You knew it perfectly.

Another thing, you said “What happened to what you told me? What happened to all the promises? It turns out to be all bullshits from you again.”

I know it’s very irresponsible of saying I forgotten what I’ve promised you. I admit that I don’t keep promises all the time. Not that I’m intentionally. I have an awful memory cells. I swear. Or perhaps I’m selective towards memories. I’ve gone through a lot. I lost the most precious person in my life when I was young. Ever since, I’m selective towards remembering things. Especially promises that I’m made to someone I cared a lot. I’m afraid of unable to fulfilling it, so I chose not to remember it. I know this is bullshits. I shouldn’t have promise it if I can’t fulfill it right? Sorry is the only word I can say now. I know it wouldn’t change anything. And I would be grateful if you remind me again the promises that I’ve broken.

Which I know it’s impossible, because it’s not important for you anymore.

I shouldn’t start making empty promises from now on. I know it hurts.

You know, both of you were the one that understand me the most. I swear. Not even my mom understands me like u two. That’s why I’m afraid. I’m afraid of exposing too much of myself.

I have low self-esteem. Especially towards people that I cared.

I’m afraid of how they see me as.

I’m afraid of them hating me after knowing the real me.

That’s why I usually don’t initiate myself. Not that I’m arrogant. I’m just too coward.

Sorry for being a bitch to you. Sorry for causing you dilemma.

And I guess you really mean it when you said you’re seriously done with me.

Friendship for 9 years and it just vanished.

In conclusion, I don’t deserve to have you guys.

Minesweeper!

2010-10-28T14:19:00.003+08:00

'm soooo addicted to it wei..

yea. the one that you thought it was a try-ur-luck so that you won't kena the bomb when you was a child! (or maybe it was only me that thinks like that, how naive!)

I've been playing it days and nights nowadays... even more addictive than facebook or pps.. >.<

Till then, shall continue playing.. :S

Sleepless night

2010-10-25T04:58:00.002+08:00

it's 5a.m. now. And i'm still sitting here. wtf.

just so u know, it's only 9p.m. in UK.. arrgh.. safe me!! i can't be continuously sleeping around this time and waking up in the noon every day. =.=

22/10/10 - meet up with Nicole, like finally! Followed her to Help in assisting her to conduct experiment. Indeed a very good experience! Testing human's plagiarism by using boggle. Then headed to Midvalley for our late lunch.

23/10/10 - Grandpa said wanna treat me a 'wash dirt' dinner. had it in Wangsa Maju Pizza Hut. First time having fastfood with grandparents? cool huh?! i hardly even have it with my parents. :D

24/10/10 - Teman-ed mom to Pavilion today. Realised that there loads of designer brands here that UK are selling relatively cheap compared to Malaysia. I wish I have the cash to visit UK again just to SHOP! xp and no more free 2 hours parking for purchases above RM100 now. upgraded to RM200. wtf. later then, headed to Brickfields, it's exactly an Indian town now. Whatever u need, sari, muruku, flowers, diabetic cookies etc. Picked up Bro n Cally from KL central and headed to Jaya 33, lepak-ed around and off to Imperial Garden for another 'wash dirt' dinner. Bloated.

Mom just woke up and knocked on my door found out that I'm still awake. 'm Sounded. ish..

i shall start working my ass on my coming F3 CIMA paper.. 'm serious! *big eyes*

22/10/2010

2010-10-22T23:28:00.004+08:00

I guess you won't be bother entering my blog again, don't you?
I thought things could get better since I was out of your sight for the past 1 year.
Is your life better without me interrupting?
You wouldn't know how badly i missed the times that we had/shared together.
Those post break-up days where we still share everything with each other every single day, chatted till late mid night, calling each other idiot, you telling me what's the latest hits, gossips etc.
Why good things always go against me?
I thought we could still be at least good friends afterall.
but the way you replied me this morning really broke my heart into pieces. Why do i always find your words stabbing my heart unconsciously everytime we talked. I guess Karma is acting on me? Sorry is the only word i can say now.

mesmerizing C21, the moment we had during your 18th Birthday. Innocent yet sweet.

Hoping you have a bright future undertaking, and Thank you for being the first person teaching me what Love is. Sorry for everything.

21/10/2010

2010-10-21T21:40:00.002+08:00

首先，原谅我超有“水准”六年级程度的华语，好吗？>.<
在这宁静的晚上，种种的回忆不停的浮在我的脑海里。
我不是一个很会说话，也不会表达自己的一个女孩。所以在众人的眼中，我是一个很内向，很冷酷,很骄傲的一个人。但是，事实并不是这样。认识我久以后就会认同吧~
我是一个：
超blur，超摸，超傻，超婆妈，超爱睡，超爱吃，超爱逞强，超爱吃醋，超被动
在家人或死党面前，我可以放荡的表现我自己，因为我知道，只有他们不会批评我，接受我的全部吧！

友情 - 好友我多的是，但，知己，又有几个呢？对你，我又爱又恨。我感谢你这些年来对我的照顾与关怀。我也感谢你把我当成你的好姐妹。但，有时你对我的不满，或我达不到你的要求，我真得透不过气来。我知道你会说，你再乎我，所以才会这样。我明白，也了解。但，当你定的目标越来越高，而我也离目标越来越远了，你不但没给予鼓励，反而摆出你的脸色给我看，希望我会了解你。人是会累的。。
我并不是要丢弃你，是你自己放弃了我们。

对另一个你，我不知道是什么。是感情吗？还是一时的冲动或寂寞。我不知道，我只知道在你心中已有令一个她了。

Home Sweet Home!!

2010-10-16T19:17:00.002+08:00

finally, i'm back to my country, love it or not.. it's still place where i grew up.
Malaysia, My Home. =)

viewed back my blog and found out that my birthday post. reminded me of how i celebrated it in UK. My group of friends actually threw me a surprise birthday party in common room.. So sweet of them~ AMA rocks!!

*no pictures, cos don't know why couldn't upload* sigh!

I'm having a serious jetlag these few days. Meet up with Adrian last night, chatted till late mid night still not feeling sleepy at all. reached home, golek-ed till 5am only managed to sleep and woke up around 3pm the next day. wtf right? >.<

Things changes tremendously during these four months. mixture of happy and sad. i guess i've grown up as a more mature 'girl' after all these things happened. Yes, i still call myself a girl, or perhaps, not a girl, not yet a woman.
i have a very low EQ, i can't handle all the -ships properly.
Friendship especially. I've gained and I've lost. Though i've gained more than lost. but the one and only lost is enough to leave a deep scar in my heart.
anyway, stop with the emo-ness.
will update this blog again when i got the time.. till then..

Happy Birthday

2010-09-06T00:48:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Liew May Jean! You're officially 22 years old now..
Sad to say this, but she felt pathetic right now.. maybe this is the first year she's celebrating without her family. aiks. and she's spending her time now on Gossip Girls. >.<

anyway, she's still looking forward for tonight's Indian Cuisine with her closes buddies.. :D

Meaningful article

2010-08-11T19:28:00.002+08:00

从网上看到这篇文章，感觉说得很有道理，虽然我还没24岁，但是时候该有这样的想法了。姐妹们，希望你们过得一天比一天幸福！

1~要坚信一个真理：这个世界上只有爸妈永远对你好。
你24岁了，你记不记得自己青春反叛的时候怎么气过他们。
你24岁了，父母都快年过半百了，你要对他们好的时间已经不多了。不要等失去的时候才哭着说当时年少不懂事，没有好好孝敬父母。

2~是的，你已经达到法定婚龄了，可是你并不用着急着嫁人。
或许你正在热恋，你们山盟海誓说要一辈子。
可是你才24岁，你不知道一辈子到底有多长。日子是过出来的，不是想出来的。
结婚，不是两个人的事情，是两个家庭的事情。老一辈讲的门当户对，并不是毫无道理的封建思想。结婚，你应该抱着一辈子只有一次的信念，所以结婚，慢慢来。

3~轰轰烈烈的爱情，留给一字头的年龄。
你24岁了。别再做那些会被别人当做笑话的傻事。
什么夜不归宿，当街吵架，以死相逼，一哭二闹三上吊。
那些疯狂的事情，那些年少轻狂，经历过就够了。
24岁了，学会淡定从容。
女孩子，从来就应该骄傲地活着，而不是卑微地恋爱。

4~不要因为寂寞而恋爱，不要因为跟风而恋爱。
24岁了，学会对自己的人生负责。

5~自己喜欢的东西，不要奢望别人买。
24岁，不管你以前是否玩过暧昧，你已经过了暧昧的年龄。
女人要独立，经济独立是基础。

6~如果一个男人对你说他配不上你，相信他。
一个自己说配不上你的男人，一辈子也不会配得上你！
珍惜与能力无关，与钱无关！

7~明确自己的目标，为此奋斗。
24岁，你要出国？找工作？还是继续学习？
24岁，你离踏入社会已不远，你是否已做好准备？

8~答应自己的事情就要做到，该对自己狠的时候就要狠，切忌优柔寡断、藕断丝连。
对自己心软，成不了大事。
24岁，要学会面对现实，不能再整日沉浸于白日梦中。

9~女孩子，要学会对自己好一点，别把所有的都投资在所谓的“潜力股”身上。
无论什么时候，看清楚你自己手中留着什么底牌。

10~做人学会圆滑。
24岁，别人不会再把你当小孩子，你的错误已不会再有人包容。
对不喜欢的人和事面带笑容，是我们必须学会的恶心。

11~感谢所有伤害过你的人。
然后在24岁生日的那天，对他们挥挥手，说声，我不再恨你们了。
你长大了，你要正视伤害。

12~别玩什么非主流。你不是90后。
还不如学着化化妆，不是烟熏妆，是大方得体的淡妆。
一个大企业的面试官曾对我说过，一个化淡妆的女生，企业会优先考虑。
为什么？因为你连自己的容貌都不着急，你会着急什么？
世界上没有丑女人，只有懒女人。

13~减肥，说说就好。
到你真的减到跟竹竿似的时候，你会发现低血压低血糖头晕目眩一系列疾病同时伴随你。
说不好还有胃癌。
24岁，你要知道，你以后的路还有很长，健康的身体是你走下去的保证。

14~对挑拨离间的人，不要揭发他。
等他演完一出出好戏，拼命演，拼命圆。
然后告诉他，其实你什么都知道。
接着，笑笑，离开。

15~谁对你好，你就对谁好。
人际交往永远是礼尚往来的、双向法则，没有人有义务对你好。
24岁，擦亮眼睛，谁对你好，记得对他好。

16~转身，要比眼泪快。
这是必须。
24岁了，你必须学会承担难过，你必须知道难过它会过去。
要经常对自己说，我也可以很勇敢。不要，千万不要，轻易在别人面前掉眼泪。
别人看多了你的眼泪，就会觉得你的眼泪如此廉价。

17~你以前或许干过许多荒唐的事。
可是请你不要觉得那有多见不得人。请你不要觉得那是负担。
24岁，这是你生命中一个新的开始。

18~随时给自己准备一个微笑告诉自己我可以！
不小了要加油了

女人应该记住的：
1.学会做几个拿手好菜，不一定是给爱人做，也可能在休闲的时候犒劳自己或者慰劳下辛苦多年的父母。

2.越是得不到的感情，越不要极尽全力的强求；越是离得很远的理想，越需要旷日持久的坚持。

3.不要在情绪不好的时候做坏的决定，越是负面情绪占据主导的时候，越要少折腾神经。

4.一天不能花8小时以上时间去想同一个人，超过12点，再大的事也要为睡觉让路。

5.当感觉自己语塞的时候，就不要乱说话，要知道，沉默，也有无限种含义。

6.心情不好或者空虚寂寞的时候，千万不要找异性去说，那样只会让你更危险，找不到好姐们，也还有自己的父母。

7.不要怕犯傻和犯错，怕的是你第二次还犯同样的傻和同样的错。

8.工作是你的权利而不是义务，你可以少工作或者多工作，但是千万不要不工作。

9.健康比三围重要，智慧比财富值钱，这两样东西，争取都不要少。

10.能得到别人称赞不一定是好事，因为那同样会让你骄傲。

11.不要总是羡慕别人的幸福，因为那也可能是别人辛苦得来的。

12.衣服不要尽可能的多，够穿就行，男人不要尽可能的富有，够体贴你就成。

back on track

2010-08-07T05:40:00.002+08:00

current mood: I'm so restless. I'm longing for a long and deep sleep, may i?
btw btw, whee.. finally sun shines after a period of cloudy days!! loving it.. i want this to stay forever! <3
heading to Nottingham tomorrow.. 'm so looking forward to it despite of the recent workloads had drained all my energies. arrgh.. more to come next week. shall get ready with my full loaded gun and aim! >.<
bought myself an adidas trainer today at Meadowhall. *loves* and i'm so headache with my adidas jacket that i bought from Cheshire oak, the sales person forgotten to detach the damn magnet.. @#$#@! thought of bringing it to Meadowhall today see whether any stores can detach it for me. but the moment i walked in to the store, the siren rang. wtf. everyone was looking at us. damn malu lo.. kept explaining to them what actually going on. ish ish ish. anyway, thanks babe (Michelle Oo) for your help! *shy*
i need to get some rest now. till then~ goodnight everyone.. :D

Meaning of Friendship

2010-07-26T19:09:00.003+08:00

Define me the meaning of friendship anyone?
I felt so moodless these few days, I might acting like I'm happy or whatsoever, but in fact I'm NOT.
Do you know why this time I did not initiate myself of approaching you and apologize like how I did last time? The reason is, I don't think I've done anything wrong. Did i betrayed or back stabbed you? or any thing against the qualities of friendship?

Why are we always fight because of small little things? We're here only for 3 damn months, isn't it better to live everyday happy than letting our anger and frustration controlling us?
Seriously, I really don't like you treating me like this. I know the more you cared for some one, you will expect more from them. When they did not reciprocal you'll mad at them like how u mad at me.

Not that I don't care your feelings, if you felt that I've done something wrong, you should tell me directly on the spot, just like how everytime you point out my mistakes. Don't accumulate the grudge until to the stage of 'what is done is DONE'.
and did you ever care about my feelings too? i DO have feelings too. what would you feel if you're trying to explain and patching back but being ignored by the other one. will you continue?

You know, I'm not as independent as you right? That's why I'm trying my best to be good to everyone but you never understand me. I do need some one care about me and let me to lean on once in awhile. I thought i could count on you, but some how, I'm afraid. I would rather hiding my fears than presenting in front of you.

No matter what, you're always my bestie. A gifted true friendship that I will never forget.

lost counting

2010-07-16T03:11:00.006+08:00

Just came back from Noodles Inn with a bunch of AMA-ians to celebrate our passing/failing of our CIMA external paper.
I'm so blessed of passing 1 out of 3 papers.. really THANK God. I swear I really did not expect to pass any. I even forgotten today is the releasing date of our result. This shows how much I 'cared'. >.< anyhow, i'm motivated, at least a little bit. 2 more papers to go and I'm a Professional Accountant. :D It's time to set a clear direction of my future. ahem.. xp
Called back home just now, again, my eyes filled with tears when i hear the familiar voices of my family.. i really miss home.. :(

AMA-ians. Friends forever! ^^

p/s: not really in a mood now. Perhaps my previous post had caused some misunderstanding towards my friend. If you happened to drop by here again, just to let you know that me and him are just friends. From the beginning till now. Trust me, You can never be replaced by anyone in his heart. Appreciate everything, fate wouldn't had brought u guys together with no reason. :)

Day 25th

2010-07-07T17:51:00.003+08:00

Suddenly i feel like listening to mom's voice, when i picked up the phone, my eyes filled with tears. stupid tears! so i decided not to call her at this moment, i know i wouldn't control my emotions.
I miss home.. I seriously miss home. :'(
especially when i'm alone at this moment. Loneliness kills. i tried to make myself busy, but it wouldn't last.
i think of my dad, i miss him. i missed him knocking my room's door every morning just to make sure i'm fine. all these while, i've been neglecting his feelings. His love and care towards me are unconditional but i did not reciprocal. I'm not a good daughter nor a good sister. My lil sister would had done miles better than me if she's still here. i really really miss her.. is she happy? did she miss me as well?
:'(

Day 23rd

2010-07-06T04:56:00.008+08:00

hmm.. kinda lost count in counting days already.. listening to love/emotional songs now.
Baby I'm Amazed By You, and i think of you. I miss everything about you. I wish time could turn back to those days that i missed deeply. I might act like I don't care at all but you won't know how much i care about.

okay, back to my life.. just wanna be alone at this silent night. listening to soft music, blogging, online. Last Saturday another trip to Whitby. seriously in love with the place there. People there are so carefree. I don't mind spending the rest of my retired life there. especially the beach. my love!

1st stop, hungrey! hunt for the so called famous Fish&Chips.
taste ok ok only la.. overrated. xp

On the way up to the spooky gravestones

i heart this alot! there's more in Facebook. lazy wana upload here. xp

last Friday, Tanggo invited me to his flat and he cooked me lunch.. aww.. it's really so sweet of him.. we know each other in Celebrity Fitness through a friend. maybe for some of you, i might be abit dauntless of going a guy's flat whom i just know a couple of months. but i don't know why, i trust him. :D he's been really nice to me all these while.. seriously.. And i appreciate it alot. Thank You! :)

Spaghetti topped with bacon+sausage pasta and broccoli

Seriously nicer than i expected :D

Till then, Good night..

Day 19th

2010-06-30T21:51:00.012+08:00

another day of home alone. went Netto alone to buy ingredient for today's dinner and top up my snacks. Burned my hand in the oven just now while cooking.. T.T

what have i done these few days. as i mentioned in my previous post, we went Cambridge on last Saturday.. a main sambil belajar trip.. let the pictures explain all..

1st stop, Punting.. it's basically a river cruise..

i love this!! <3

outside some college.. xp

King's College

The Girls

jump~

we JUMP~~

They Jump~~

Outside the museum

Last pic of the day..

The next day is John's 22nd Birthday, had a potluck celebration with him..

food prepared by our house, flat 56.

fried meehoon

marinated bbq chicken

fish finger

+ 1 more green bean tong sui, forgot to take picture.. xp

all the food~~

and the birthday boy, John~ u're a MAN now. yuhoo!!!

2010-06-29T06:11:00.000+08:00

i miss you, :')

Day 17th

2010-06-28T22:02:00.002+08:00

killing my time at university library now.. i guess this will be part of my schedule on every Monday. sigh~ my timetable different with friends, so i have a total of 5 hours break in between..sobs.. wanted to go back at 1st, but had group discussion just now.. so left 2 hours only.. so suen la.. xp

last saturday we visited Cambridge. It's a city full of Univercities... and Museums.. :D overall it's an enjoyable and fun trip with great companions.. looking forward for this coming Saturday to Whitby! whee.

Day 12th

2010-06-23T17:53:00.003+08:00

3 of them went for classes. left me here home alone.. sigh~ apparently i'm separated with them in most of the classes.. i'm always the cacat-ed one.. :(

last night we went to this Gentlemen's Club. seriously guys would love it to the max.. naked pole dancing whole night.. gosh.. at first, kinda awkward seeing them, but slowly, okayla.. it's a norm to them.. but for many of us it might be abit obscene.. anyhow, it's a good experience.. :D

gotta start my ass on my this coming Friday presentation. till then..

Day 10th

2010-06-22T05:01:00.006+08:00

time really flies. Today is the 10th day of me staying in Sheffield.
visited Old Trafford last Saturday, great experience! though i don't really savor soccer la. >.<

Beauties & The Beast (wakaka. jk la.. our dai lou leh)

MU die hard fans. lol

lunch at Tai Hu Dim Sum
It was better than expected, NICE! yummy~

Next, jalan jalan around Manchester China Town and Exchange Square. Full of branded stuffs, from G to L.
but orang miskin like me where can afford la. (hear that mommy, daddy?) lol jkjk..
other than shopping nothing much.. frankly, i don't think this trip worth the price lor. it costs us 15 Pounds which only includes transportation and ticket to the stadium. (which costs only 4 Pounds i guess.) and can't really take our own sweet time taking pictures in the Stadium. sigh~

2nd week of classes, assignment and presentation are piling up. gotta put 100% in my studies la. first class honours, i'm coming after you. lol. till then..
take care people~ :D

thoughts

2010-06-19T04:00:00.003+08:00

yeah, i'm back again.. congrats! promise i'll never come and go again.. please trust me once again. :p gonna jot down every precious moment here, Sheffield.
And at the same time, to my dear family, relatives and friends which i have no time to update my life over here, feel free to view my blog when you miss me. :D aiseh, terasa pulak..

Skyped with mommy, bro and cally just now. (dad still not back yet) chatted almost 1 hour. seriously missed my family over there. missed my bed, my astro, my lisa jie (kelisa) etc.. suddenly feel home sick pulak.. aiks.. it's already 1 week i'm here, still getting used to the life here.. life without my lisa is really sucks.. over-pampered child. xp hmm.. nothing much actually.

will update again when i have the time.. till then. Heading to Manchester United tomorrow. wee~~
Good Night!

back

2010-04-01T21:12:00.005+08:00

well, i'm back from nowhere again.
i guess there's no one ever stop by here anymore.
it's alright.. this blog is mine. and it's all up to me whether wanna make it alive or dead.

okay, back to my life.. couldn't really relate to the word 'interesting' anymore. my college life has officially ended since January2010. it's only weekends' classes I'm attending now to prepare for my external papers. i guess next year i'll be coming back again.. CONFIRM! if i still chit-chatting on EVERY single classes. >.< well, no more college means no more pontengs, no more working my ass on assignments, no more 'high-school dramas', no more after-class outings/movies.. no more FUN to be exact. sigh.. coll vs. coll-no-more? college of cos! gonna miss u guys lots.. :')

*EDITED* XP

Happy 21st, Nicole!

2009-06-09T19:31:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO NICOLE CHUA~~
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U~~~~~

this pic was taken last year after our heavily-done make up by some random junior makeup artist.

celebrated @ Tony Roma's, Pavilion last night, but lazy wanna upload those pic la. so no pictures. heheh

Nic, we've known each other for more than 13 years right? and i hope it's still counting and getting stronger each year.
thanks for being my best friend since we were standard 3.
though we were only same class for 2 damn years, but we never failed to support each other all the time.
i still remember letters are our 2nd communication tools for gossiping and expressing feelings whenever we fought. (we used to fight alot last time yah?! very emo kids.. hehe) I still keeping those 'love' letters and it was damn fun reading them back. i really miss those time. :'(

lastly,
babe, Happy 21st Birthday!
i'm so grateful that you came into my life.
you brighten up my childhood life and thanks for everything.
i know we've been lost in touch nowaday, but u'll always be in my heart. :D

i know it's kinda sound gross for me to say out, but.....whatever. LOL

p/s: hopefully she won't read this, else she'll say i very geli. hahah..

Meeting Yin

2009-06-07T23:22:00.005+08:00

before proceeding to today's outing, just wanna share something i bought last night..

tadaaa.....

Went to One Utama on Sat night and we got ourselves these.
it only cost us RM 100 leh!!
it's definitely a steal!!
btw, the back one are mine the front one belong to my mom. :D

oh yea, so today i met up with my ex-colleague, Yin at Midvalley.. it's been such a looong time since we last catch up.. gossip, chit chat, shopping are what we girls love to do.. LOL.
it was fun!

nothing much to blog d.. continue some of the pictures at zouk. :X

finally my eyes look big here. kekek..

the 5 of us.. so red..
this is our nerd look at college.

till then, good night~~

Zouk

2009-06-07T00:03:00.010+08:00

had a fun and crazy night at Zouk last night with the crazy dudes and babes.
it was our first time clubbing together, i tot we'll be like shy shy, won't dance till that crazy but it ended up totally opposite.

pictures time!!!

done making up but dunno what to wear. >.<

inside dai lou's car.
my makeup was not tat tebal ok. it's due the flash light la..

belum boleh masuk so waiting outside.

sudah boleh masuk, but still haven't warm up... keke

make up still cantik, belum smear. muka pun belum jadi tomato

started to drink and dance.

darah sudah mula bernaik sampai muka.
muka bermula menjadi merah and minyak. ish..

where else it could be??

group pic before leaving.

next round, some mamak around Bangsar.

by the time i reached home, damn chan.
make up all smeared, dead fish eye. =.=

no pic were taken at dance floor cos we were too high/busy dancing. :(
next time gotta remember take a few.. hehe..

p/s: i'm guess i'm addicted. :p

Back to School

2009-06-02T20:20:00.008+08:00

i've so much to say yet so little time to blog. will be full of pictures in today's post. keke..
btw, college just started last week, 4 subjects. 1 of them comprises 5 hours of lectures and 2 subjects are having 3 hours of tutorial weekly. GREAT..... for us to sleep. :D

what did i do recently?
pictures pictures!!

oh ya, before i forget,

HAPPY BELATED TEACHER'S DAY TO ME & MOMMY & ALL THE TEACHERS IN THE WORLD!!

i got my 1st ever teacher's day cake..
it's the best cake that i ever ate ok!!
sweeet giler in my heart.
though part of it is for my mom. :x

next, my beautiful tattoo. :p

done at my mom student's birthday party.
a very huge and grand one. envy!!

no tutorials punya 1st week, we end up:

red box (low yat)

pls ignore my aunty facial expression with my super oily and huge gemuk muka.

TS stage

the following day

Terminator
i rate it 7/10
consider not bad la for a person who anti-action movie.
i love horror movie! *loves*

Kepong's Station 1

Genting. it was a really last minute plan.
our attire is the killer of the night, it was heavy rain that ~~morning~~ night. and we girls were like all wearing shorts and minis.

p/s: that night i managed to slipped into casino for the 2nd time in my life (i'm still a small little girl ok. :p).
should i feel happy about it? cos i look like an old fart. :'(

on saturday, went to my ex-company, Brainbuilder to earn some extra income.
it was really great meeting back my old students...
so glad that my children still remember me, the Teacher Jean. muahhhahaha!

at night, May's birthday celebration at my aunt's house.
the day tat i most anticipated...
where i can snap99 with my lovely cousins.. Jacky esp. and eating delicious punya makanan..

jacky, my dearest cousin

yea, i know i look super gemuk nowadays. thanks for reminding.
every1 'complimented' me. sigh~~ even my ex-boss greeted me with 'wow, jean! u fat already!'
this is hurt okay boss. :(

vincent, my second playboy cousin, :p

Junior, our ultimate playboy cousin. *salute* :D

I look shy here. hehe

2 girlish future gymnasts.

the king at home. yes, she's the KING.

The spiderman.

the siao po who swallow the whole egg inside her mouth.

the next day, went to Ampang Down Syndrome Home again organised by SonrisaCf. it was a last minute plan again, for me.

the cheerful girl in the house.

he loves to social..
i brought 4 cousins along this round since they so semangat wanna follow me to do some charity which is really GOOD!!

ops, 1 cousin missing, she's camera-shy.

lastly, some pictures from my Sabah trip. :D

i always look different from the two of them. :(

starting our journey to the top of Mount

i think i better stop here before blogspot is overloaded with my pics. :p

wait, last one. :p

ccoool??! :p

back from KK

2009-05-20T23:47:00.009+08:00

i'm back!!! to make it short, it was an enjoyable trip with lots of mixed feelings/emotions/bonds/physical and mental exhaustion etc..

and of cos i'm broke like hell now.. worthwhile to be broke for real. :0 LOL

Let the pictures speak ok. btw, they're randomly arranged due to majority of the pics are not with me now.

Khai Tzer & Kai Seng
both dai lous all the way sent us to LCCT. thanks ya!

on the way to the plane

models-to-be :p
the girls : Wai Queen, Jessie, Michelle, Wen Xuan, Mei Fong & Me
@Tanjung Aru Beach

=.=

the guys: Yeong Kit, John, Khai Yuen, Paul
with 2 leng luis. :p

our one & only group pic i think, without magendren somemore. :(

waiting for our seafood. hehe

before starting our journey to the mount. (still can smile)

hardly can smile anymore..
with our tongkat to assist us.

look at the condition of the road.
this consider very easy already lor..

the 4 of us that couldn't reach the top of the mountain.
so sad.. i wanted to climb up so badly, but the weather was terrible..
raining the whole night and my cheaplak shoes giving me problem..
ish..

i will try again next time.. anyone interested?

our last day at Sabah

coconut drinking

second round of YoYo, the best bubble pearl tea in Sabah

Sabah airport

our huge backpack

beautiful scenery

emo. cos it's our last day. :(

Pictures taken during Kai Seng's 21st B'day @ Genting

cake session @ Starbucks

outdoor theme park

random, my ex-ex company
BrainBuilder
Carnival @ Subang parade

spot me. hehe..
i miss my students sooo badly!!

that's all for now.. need to rest my muscles now..
bye..

Mount KK, tunggu aku

2009-05-12T22:31:00.002+08:00

will be heading to Sabah tomorrow!!
after few weeks of mushroom growing, finally the day comes... :D

today, the sabah gang came my house and scrutinized whatever i'm bringing to Sabah..
habis all my undies kena exposed. hahahaha.. :p

then, we headed to 1u for our last minute shopping. we had Sushi Zanmai!!
omg.. the sushis there are awesome! trust me, it's way better than sushi king and sakae.
(Mui, our turn next.. keke)

i'm over-utilizing my luggage bag. gosh, hopefully it won't overweight lar. or else i gotta dump my junks at air port.
time to sleep d larr.. Both dai lous coming all the way to fetch us to LCCT tomorrow. so sweet. LOL.

wish me have a safe and enjoyable trip.. :D

Goodnight~~

LMAO

2009-05-11T22:28:00.003+08:00

Let's L-A-U-G-H~~

DON'T LOOK AT NAKED LADY
Boy 1: Why do you run from a naked lady?
Boy 2: Becos my mum said that if I look at a naked lady,
I'll turn into stone.* *
A part of me is getting hard already!

ARAB MAN
An arab was being interviewed at a US checkpoint.* *
'Your name pls'?
'Abdul Aziz '
'Sex? '
'Six times a week!! '
'No, no, I mean male or female! '
'Doesn't matters, sometimes even camel !'

HAPPY MAN
What makes a happy man?
Daughter on the cover of cosmo.
Son on the cover of sports illustrated.
Mistress on the cover of playboy and...* *
Wife on the cover of 'missing persons'

VIRGIN
Old lady, 85, a virgin, about to die. wanted her tombstone
to read :* *
BORN A VIRGIN, LIVED A VIRGIN, DIED A VIRGIN.
The engraver shortened it to: ' RETURNED UNOPENED

OLD MAN AND YOUNG GIRL
75 yr old man got married to a 15 yr girl.
On their first night both were crying - why???

THINK PEOPLE!!

Coz she didn't know anything and he had forgotten. @.@

OK, Lame.. next
Top 10 Rejection Lines
Top 10 Rejection Lines Given By Women (and what they actually mean...)

10. I think of you as a brother. (You remind me of that inbred banjo-playing geek in "Deliverance.")

9. There's a slight difference in our ages. (I don't want to do my dad)

8. I'm not attracted to you in 'that' way. (You are the ugliest dork I've ever laid eyes upon.)

7. My life is too complicated right now. (I don't want you spending the whole night or else you may hear phone calls from all the other guys I'm seeing.)

6. I've got a boyfriend (I prefer my male cat and a half gallon of Ben and Jerry's).

5. I don't date men where I work. (I wouldn't date you if you were in the same 'solar system', much less the same building.)

4. It's not you, it's me. (It's you.)

3. I'm concentrating on my career. (Even something as boring and unfulfilling as my job is better than dating you.)

2. I'm celibate. (I've sworn off only the men like you.)

and the number 1 rejection line given by women (and what it really means)
1. Let's be friends. (I want you to stay around so I can tell you in excruciating detail about all the other men I meet and have sex with. It's that male perspective thing.)

Top 10 Rejection Lines Given By Men (and what they actually mean...)

10. I think of you as a sister. (You're ugly.)

9. There's a slight difference in our ages. (You're ugly.)

8. I'm not attracted to you in 'that' way. (You're ugly.)

7. My life is too complicated right now. (You're ugly.)

6. I've got a girlfriend. (You're ugly.)

5. I don't date women where I work. (You're ugly.)

4. It's not you, it's me. (You're ugly.)

3. I'm concentrating on my career. (You're ugly.)

2. I'm celibate. (You're ugly.)

and the number 1 rejection line given by men (and what it actually means)
everything.
~~1. Let's be friends. (You're sinfully ugly.)~~ jantan teruk!!

Dictionary
EYE CONTACT: A method utilized by a single woman to communicate to a man that she is interested in him. Despite being advised to do so, many women have difficulty looking a man directly in the eyes, not necessarily due to the shyness, but usually due to the fact that a woman's eyes are not located in her chest.

FRIEND: A member of the opposite sex in your acquaintance who has some flaw which makes sleeping with him/her totally unappealing.

LOVE AT 1st SIGHT: What occurs when two extremely horny, but not entirely choosy people meet.

hope they made ur day too!! good night~~

Celebration

2009-05-10T11:05:00.004+08:00

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY
TO MY DEAREST MOMMY, GRANDMA
AND ALL THE MOMS IN THE WORLD!!!

mommy & me

popo & me

without popo, with them

without them, without us.

and not forgetting the fathers also lar.. hehe
without them, without us too. =)

an oh ya,

HAPPY BELATED WESAK DAY!!
&
HAPPY BISDS 80TH WESAK CELEBRATION 2009!

will update some pictures soon, going shopping now.
yuhoo~~

SLEEEEPY!

2009-05-05T21:08:00.003+08:00

just came back from Genting..
the weather was horribly cold!!
made me sneeeze like hell now.. ish..
hopefully it's not H1N1. *touchwood* :D
oh ya,

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO DAI LOU, KAI SENG!!

celebrated his b'day last night at Bukit Tinggi before headed up to Hills.
no way we can sleep soundly there right..
so whole night, we went wild due to alcohols, loads of secrets have been revealed..
lol
had a fun night with them..
took lots of pictures. but none with me now.
will post them up when they're with me lar..
going to sleep lar now.. damn sleeeepy.. zzzzzz

KK Trip preparation part 1

2009-05-02T19:07:00.008+08:00

WARNING! THIS POST WILL BE A VERY LONG-WINDED POST!
:s

13 May 2009, will be my first time mount climbing..
So people, wish me luck in getting my fat ass to the top of Mount KK okie.
of cos without anything serious than this
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akibat daripada jalan tanpa buka mata besar besar lalu terkick motor. =.=
i took 5 days to mengfaintkan it okay. *sob*

okay, my first trip to Guardian + Watson in 1 night.

Stay free slim pad
Deep cleansing cotton
Wet tissues
Carrie Baby Bath
sunblock
facial oil blotter
Sun-Maid Raisin (way nicer than LIGO!)
2 Alive mixed nut bars
Mars, Snickers, 3 Tops
Anti- Bacterial hand gel

the following day at Guardian
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as picture, lazy mao label la.

this is Power Bar! the so called bar that gives you energy while mendaki bukit.

it's not cheap ok.. this batang costs me RM 7.90. =.= (need to get a few more)

apparel/kits that need to reach the top of the Mount.

Long John

Wind-breaker

a red wool tops with 2 main-snow-punya-gloves.
more like i'm going North Pole. =.=

a short track bottom, slippers, 2 ponchos/raincoats

a pair of comfortable shoes.

guess how much is this shoes?
it's only freaking RM 10!!!!!! (retail RM 129 wei)
Brand? three point six!
the left one is bit yellowish on the rubber, so yea. it's hell cheap!

kotor d also tak payah sakit hati. :p

last but not list, my up-to-date power supplement.

more to come. :p

impulse!

2009-04-28T15:04:00.003+08:00

fuh, been abandoning my blog for some time already.
what's make me feel like blogging?

*beep beep*
i rushed down and retrieved them from Mr. Posman

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awww... my impulse buying of masques. i know i have alot of masques in my room.
hydrating, deep cleansing, whitening, purifying, exfoliate, mint and sleeping.
peel off, stick on, gel type whatever it is.. (majority of them left 90% and above) but, i love to try new masques ma.. :p

will do a review after i've tried on the masques.

napping time, bye!

stupid look, i know.. so what?? :P
working @ Royale Bintang Hotel last week.

Shopping Haul

2009-04-20T22:21:00.006+08:00

been shopping alot lately.. online shopping to be exact. it's so addictive lah.
oh ya, PKIK carnival was a blast. we sold off all the sushis before 1pm. terror kan.. :p
great job everyone esp. Sonrisa CF's leader, Sherly. you made us sooo worried u know. take care ya!! and thanks to those who bought the coupons from me.. *bow*
ok. back to my shopping haul.

1 sunny afternoon, i woke up and felt so boring, so i dressed up without knowing where to go. suddenly tot of my grandma.
so, i went to Ampang Point and bought this for my popo and cousins.

it's been a long time.

manatau, she went to Vietnam with my gong gong d. (terlupa) so i lepak awhile at grandma house then back to Ampang Point again to kill my time.
jalan-jalan around.
less than 10 minutes, i came out with

guess what...
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tada..

cantik??

then forced myself balik to refrain from abusing my debit card, nothing to do, so online look for some interesting blogshop, and i found this site
and something intrigued me.
the next day, someone out of a sudden made me detached from my couch like a mad woman.
and it made my day! but i couldn't try em' out cos i don't have any brushes. sigh!!

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<3 <3

after that, resume back to my lappie and found out this
and i got myself this

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finally! i got my Paris Hilton Heiress
plus Jlo Still and Lovely Jessica Parker miniature!!!
yay!

happiness!!!
and there goes my 1 month salary... $.$
haha.. nvm. work to spend okay! :p

Coming Soon

2009-04-18T12:46:00.004+08:00

had a gathering with college buds last night.
had our dinner at Bukit Maluri and went for a late night movie at Cathay Cineplexes @ The Curve after that.
fuh~~ we watched:

director of Shutter and Alone.
we watched Alone together during out diploma time.. *sweet memories*
hell yea. it was fucking horror. and the story line was erratically great . i said great means REALLY GREAT. unlike some horror movie with suck/senseless story line.
i was hyperventilated throughout the whole movie. *nojoke*
the movie started at 12am. watching horror movie in cinema is always my cup of tea (especially during midnight. :p) but majority of my friends don't really fathom horror movie. why ya? chi kik wert..

Wentworth Fever

2009-04-16T11:31:00.010+08:00

i've finished watching season 1 & 2 ages ago. i decided to re-watch season 2. the part where they already escaped from prison. chi kik-ness!!

Wentworth Miller is such a god-like creature. man.. his body with that gorgeous tatoos..

oh man~~

close up. look at his tits. sexeh babeh~~hahaha

but these tatoos aren't real.

Star: How do people react to the tattoos off the set?
Sexeh baby: "It's pretty interesting. I'll be at Starbucks in my flip-flops and shorts and I've got the full tattoos on my arms, and people make space for me in line."

his tatoo-less body!
*inhale-exhale-inhale-exhale...... heartbeat stopped* XD

Oh ya, guess how old is he?
25? 28? 30?

nah, he's 37!!!! omg.. is he one of the Cullens too? :p

he film-ed in Mariah Carey - We Belong Together too..

i love Botaks!!
Shayne Ward is another botak that i adores!

gorgeous kan??
<3

pizza hut. anyone?

2009-04-12T21:53:00.002+08:00

just came across an email regarding Pizza Hut.
if you ever notice, the top right corner of the receipt, there's a column for RACE
yea. warna kulit anda yang berseri-seri!
just so you know, if only you happened to born as a Muslin in this 'wonderful' country, you're exempted from their tax and service charges.
babi right?

mom will be back in an hour time. yay! <3
i wan souvenirs!! but no-to-tee-shirts!! :p

i wish to have a puppy so badly! :(

Home Alone

2009-04-07T21:55:00.002+08:00

This morning, mom and dad flew to Bali without me, again... *poor girl*
Dad will be back on Thursday while mom will be flying to Jakarta once she arrive Malaysia on Thurs..
sigh.. will miss u mom.
pls don't buy me Balinese tees again.. my wardrobe has already reached its limit for that jumble of tees from which ever country you've been.
i'm not complaining. just that, i really don't need that MUCH of tees. :p
gotta do all the house chores this week.. frankly, i hate chores.
what makes me aggravate the most is,
i gotta squeeze my brain juice what to eat for my entire week. :(
i know it's a good timing for me to scrutinize whatever in the kitchen esp. baking.
but but, not alone pls.

my farts smell bad. lol.
maybe due to the digestive biscuits complemented with milo that i had for dinner. :p
gonna cirit soon i guess.
bye!!

officially unemployment

2009-04-06T18:19:00.006+08:00

soo.... finally i'm officially labelled as Ms. Ukur Lantai..
it was fun at first, but it's really very very made me very the unproductive lo.
whole day tv, drama, story book, sleep and not forgetting eatting non-stop!
:(

nvm la.. since i'll missing all this for a very long time :

dearest, i'm soo gonna miss you!!! *stomach start thundering!!*

haha.. okay, whatever it is..
last saturday went Pavilion with mom. and surprisingly mom was soooo happily letting me swap her credit cards.. *Aww. mom, i love you!!*
and i got myself a set of :

i slumberly said i wanna collect this Twilight series.
without hesitation, she helped me to flip through all the four books for defects.
awww.. and the books seriously cost a bomb wei..
i would have dine twice in Jogoya.

then jalan jalan around, i said wanna buy a sport shoes despite currently having Nike's punya.
so apparently we walked in to ALL the sports shops, STADIUM, BOTH ADIDAS, FILA, NIKE etc.
but i couldn't find 1 that i love (as usual!).. :(
i craved for a very disappointing look everytime walked out from the shops empty handed.
mom did not complaint but teman me walk around in&out.
me hopeless daughter right?? i know... :p

then masuk Parkson and hunt for bras.. lol..
i bought 3 bras. haha.. they are awesome wei!
and they would cost us 1 and half time dining in Jogoya. lol..
i know i know. i'm hopeless. :p

eh, what la.. that day i used my salary and belanja-ed my mom dined at Sakae Sushi ok..
actually it's my choice going there la..
cos there's the only japanese food there(if not mistaken) and i was craving for it sooo badly!
i had my all time fav:

soo yummylicious!

all and all, the bill only cost 1 jogoya for the both of us..
hehe..
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next week it's sushi bonanza again! yay!!! who's up with me?
*jacky, you can't escape i tell you!*
who else????

going for dinner now.. tata..

PKIK Carnival day

2009-04-02T23:44:00.002+08:00

just back from a meeting with sherly and few members at ss2 Leo's cafe.
me semangat right?? lol..
it's regarding PKIK, refer below :

(credits to sherly)

In this April I will be working out together with PKIK(Persatuan Kanak-kanak Istimewa Kajang) for fund raising camp and as well their carnival day.

PKIK started operation on 5/6/1995 for children/persons with learning disablities and was registered as a Society on 6/5/1998. It is managed by a Committee of 11 voluntary elected/appointed members. The mission of PKIK is to help this group with learning disabilities in their overall develpoment and help them towards a life as independant and meaningful as possible.

We will have a CARNIVAL day on 19 April 2009 in Kajang. The purpose of the carnival is organized to raise funds needed for PKIK's Building Fund. As for my part, I will be taking up 2 stalls in this event to show my support to them. I will be doing face painting and as well selling sushi. For those who are able to come and help out for this event, please drop a message here. Training will be provided for face painting.

As for Fund Raising Drive, I hope to get at least/minimum RM10,000 for them in helping them to get a place for the special children. I will post up a soft copy of the form to you to download it and email it back to me or you may get the letter from me straight. I will post up my time and location for that. As for donation, you can write in cheque or cash or bank draft to me, this camp will end by 25 April. Each donor will receive a acknowledge receipt from PKIK for your donation. In fact, I will also post up the amount I collected from donors in the thread.

So, what are you waiting for? If you are free on 19 April, please come and join the fun by buying coupons, per book is only RM10! Also please help the children to get a place by making some donation. I really appreciate you for your time to read this post and your kind contribution.

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yeah, so people.. please buy some coupons from me and join the fun in the carnival..
it's just RM 10 and you can make a difference for the special children..

Date : 19 April 2009
Venue : Padang SJK (C) Yu Hua, Jalan Timur, Kajang, Selangor
Time : 11.00 am - 4.00 pm

i'll be in charging face painting.. yuhoo~~ so come and let me draw your face ok!! kekee..

till then, i'm very sleepy.. night night~~

tomorrow is the day!!

2009-03-30T20:44:00.002+08:00

i'm sooo sick now.. non-stop sneezing like a retard woman. ish ish..

yay, tomorrow will be my last day in this company. hopefully my boss will slumberly let me leave.
no point me staying there while my heart isn't there anymore. right right?

whatever it is.. i'm leaving... :)

today went to Berjaya Times Square again.
there's this cute malay guy, Amir really pro in making me go crazy after him. lol.. haha. jokin jokin. :p
he's the banquet guy there and he's 1 year younger than me. (too bad!)
i met him once last week through the malay colleague of mine.
and today he kept staring at me passionately with a gently smile that can melt your heart instantly! ('m not kidding! lol) and out of the sudden he started this conversation :

him : u ada boyfriend tak??
me : *stunned & blushed gao gao for few sec* huh.. haha.. gape? sibuk la u.. :p
him : ahh.. mesti ada..
me : why? muka i macam ada bf ge?
him : u cantik.. mesti ada..
me : mana ada la.. u? mesti banyak gf..
him : takde la.. serious..
me : kerja sampai kul berapa?
him : 3 spai 11.. nak ajak i kluar?
me : hehehe..

stood up, walked to this exclusively corporate club ballroom, asked him, saya boleh masuk?
him : boleh, tapi mesti pegang tangan i la..
me : ...... tak nak!
him : then tak boleh masuk la.. *do some silly faces*
me : hmmmph.. *act merajuk and walk away*
him : alaa... masuk la. mari...

then, pointed at another huge ballroom,
me : malam ini ada big function?
him : yala.. i dah book untuk u.. candle light dinner.. nak melamar kat u.. boleh?
me : .........

he's really damn cute lar. too bad he's younger than me.. lol.. else sure tackle him99. lol.. kidding la!!

then, balik tat time, he insist to help me carry my bag and walk me to my car..
so sweet so sweet...
gosh.. i sound like a desperate old lady craving for a young man. hahahaha.. whatever it is..
i don't deny that i felt attractive today.. hahaha. (even if he's saja kacau me) :p

House Of Joy

2009-03-28T20:54:00.003+08:00

This time around, let us head to Taman Kinrara, Puchong for the under-privileged in House of Joy! HOUSE OF JOY is a social concern and a non-profit charitable home that administers shelter, care and training to orphans, children and teens who are underprivileged, abused, abandoned & neglected, poor, and delinquent. Besides children’ home, we also give shelter and care to some underprivileged and destitute old folk. House of Joy has been established since 1st August 1992 by Rev Tang Chee Sing and his wife Lee Ching Mun.The aim of House of Joy is to reach out to these needy people, to develop a real sense of worth and a change for the betterment amongst children, teenagers and the elderly. We hope that by loving, caring, counseling, educating, training and transforming through restoration will help this needy especially children and teenagers into useful adults, ready to face life’s challenges.

so this time round, me, as one of the LYNCF member which had been MIS for a very very long time finally keluarkan some time to attend.
lol.
it's only an excuse if you said you got no time for charity. - absolutely agreed.

i woke up as early as 6.30am this morning to get ready and meet up with Bryan and headed to meet up point with the rest.
i swear i was damn tired&sleepy and bloody no mood due to yesterday's perpetual curses. :p

we were the 1st car to arrive. *flip hair* haha.. then slowly every1 arrived.
reached the girls' home around 9?
then, clean up the house.. swept and mopped the floor, set up the tent, tables and chairs etc..

then wait for the boys to arrive from their home.
KFC sampai! yuhoo.. kids happiest time..
and i met a leng chai there.. his name is Ah Loong. haha.. he's damn cute wei..
really made me wanna bring him back.. :'(
will show his pic when it's with me.

after makan, games&presents time...
main main sembang sembang and time flies..
it's almost 230pm. and time to say goodbye.. ;(

i had a really really enjoyable&productive day.. made me a happy girl today. though my past few days was a disastrous.
i'm so gonna get my ass ready for the next month's charity no matter what.
Sherly, good job.. you know we love you. <3
and thanks for the ride my dear 'ji mui' bryan. lol.

oh btw, HAPPY EARTH HOUR 2009. i very guai, I'm blogging without light now. :p

WTF

2009-03-27T23:40:00.002+08:00

fucking pissed off wei!!!!
my ex-colleague just called me and bocor to me that the malay colleague of mine that i mentioned in my blog b4 told her that I AM SUSAH TO AJAR!

WHAT THE FUCK?!?!

who's teaching who now? who still bug me on how to print name tag and stuffs?
who's helping you source for books and follow up every little shit on the books and kena pressure like hell from boss?

i couldn't recall anything that you had ajar me before for god sake. i swear N-O-T-H-I-N-G!

Yeah, i remember very well how you taught us to cover your boobs up by giving boss a rosy picture.
at the end, who kena??

please tard.

susah nak ajar right? bless u.. save your puss up to "ajar" me from next week on.
i'll throw all the shits back to you dear.
i've had enough of my asshole cucuk-ed.

and boss, you told her that you don't wanna hire intern anymore. did you?
if yes, yea.. better don't.. intern is not high class enough for your company.
we don't do perfect job to meet your flawless demand.
so please don't jimat to hire cheap labour like us.
thank you.

sorry for the vulgar. i really tak boleh tahan la..
am i really that bad for an intern??
i've put so much efforts into my job but... seems like no one appreciating it. :(

She Apologized

2009-03-26T22:24:00.002+08:00

Listening to Neyo - Mad <3

after 1 night of contemplating.
'she' finally realized that she felt guilty of accusing me.
'she' apologized when there were only both of us in the 'stuffy' office.

and i couldn't control my tears again. ('m really bad in dealing with tears. :$ )
so, i tried to avoid eye-contact with her and acted that i was cool with it and said
'it's alright D.. it's over d..'

in fact, i was soo not cool with it. why you bother to apologize??
the moment the dirty lies that came out from you. i'm so over&done with you.
you denied = i lied.
do you think i felt good to be treated as a LIER?

both of you just senang senang escape and threw all the blames at me alone.
i was hoping sooo badly that you guys would give me a hand.
but... sigh.. whatever it is.. this is real world.

like Yin said, it's better for him that i telan all the blames rather than sharing it with his closest/related ones which would be more awkward/embarrass for him to react.

so what?? it's so not fair to me.. i'm the most innocent one..
i tried my best to please everyone and company.
what i get?!?!

whatever it is.. i finally had the guts to tell him that i wanna quit.
and to D, thanks for your apology. though it doesn't really matter to me anymore. but i appreciate it alot.

the only person that i will miss is you, Yin. you know that. lol.
i'll miss how we caught in the rain under the telephone booth today.

me : yay.. we're so romantic now..
Yin: yea. only i have a dick.
me : .....

@.@ you seriously made my day. :)

emo day

2009-03-25T20:49:00.003+08:00

today is the worst day of work after sooo long..
worst till to the extend that i couldn't control my tears anymore.
i've been emo the entire day..
i've been withholding my tears from everyone. but i think i've failed pathetically somehow especially infront of Yin. i'm bad in all these.

i really hate being accused/blamed for things that i'm out of control.
today's issue really smothered me like hell.
couldn't deny the fact that working life is way cruel than you could imagine.

don't feel like diffusing it world widely. i just wish that i could talk to some1 that i'm close/comfortable with.
but i really don't feel like bothering them with my problem. :(

luckily i have this nice new colleague of mine, Yin in this suffocating office.
if she wasn't there for me today. i would be a damn emo girl now. (at least i felt better after spilling out to her)

i wrote her a long ~~love~~ emo letter.
and she sms me within minute. i felt sooo touched.. you won't know how much you cheered me up.

contents deleted. :p

Yin, thanks alot. thanks for entertaining such a childish and sensitive girl like me.
thanks for letting me released my tantrum today.
i couldnt imagine the office without you there for me..
thank god i met u..

hope things get better tmr.

Book Review Part 2

2009-03-22T21:12:00.007+08:00

i'm bored..
just finished watching 6 epis of this :

comment? hmm.. not bad.. i enjoy watching Laughing kor.. the way he touched sam jeh hearts. aww..
Can't wait to finish all the 30 epis..

so shall continue my book review part 2 since i'm sooo bored now.

101 ways to score points with a woman.

Make the bed and clean up the bedroom. yes, i'm a lazy bum. :p ****

Wash before having sex or put on a cologne if she likes that. haha.. cologne increases sex drive?? *****

Be patient when she is sharing. DON'T look at your watch. **

Display affection in public. *****

when holding hands don't let your hand go limp. *******

suggest different restaurants for going out; don't put the burden of figuring out where to go with her. yes! please. i hate planning.. :p **********

Be understanding when she is late or decides to change her outfit. *****

Pay more attention to her than to others in public. ****

Buy her an outfit (take a picture of your partner along with her sizes to the store and let them help you select it). *****

Let her see that you carry a picture of her in your wallet and update it from time to time. ********

Write a note/poem or make a sign on special occasions such as anniversaries and birthdays. ********

Treat her in ways you did at the beginning of the relationship. *******

Read out loud or cut out sections of the newspaper that would interest her. (i hate reading newspaper) **********

Bring home her favorite pie or dessert. chesse cake topped with melted choc can i? yummmmmm~~ ***************

number of * according to my personal preference. :p
lots more la. malas wanna type out.. haha.
now, let's see

How women can score big with men

He disappoints her but she doesn't punish him.
He gets lost and she sees the good in the situation and says "We would never have seen this beautiful sunset if we had take the most direct route."
When he apologizes for a mistake and she receives it with loving acceptance and forgiveness.
When he wants to make up after a fight and starts doing little things for her and she starts appreciating him again,
She is happy to see him when he gets home.

very panjang la men's punya.. lazy mao type d.
continue my drama luu.. night~~

Thai Thai

2009-03-22T13:08:00.003+08:00

half day out to Sunway Pyramid with my college gang yesterday.
reason??
cos we have all passed!! yuhoo~~

i'm soooo satisfied and happy with my result though i didn't get any A la..
this time i got rojak B again. B+, B and B-.

Okla.. for a procrastinator like me.. hopefully it would maintain throughout my advance diplo year. *pray hard*

so, dai lou came and pick us up and headed to pyramid cos dai ga jeh wanted to try Thai Express.
but ended up we had Thai Thai cos Thai Express doesn't exist in pyramid. lol.

but turned out not bad.. nice environment, typical thai food with reasonable price.

then, wanted to catch a movie (already beratur&almost our turn) but then chelle jeh said in cinema cannot chit-chat so suggested bowl. so ok!!

upon reaching there, can see a huge crowd there. obviously there're having some tournaments.. quite alot of hunky guys there though.. *drool**

ge po awhile then don't know where-to-go-and-what-to-do.

girls favourite time!! SHOPPING~~

KITCHEN
something like nichii concept but slightly more high class.

spot the shorts. nice? wanted to buy but toooo tight la.. :(

spot the tee and shorts.
tee : too transparent
shorts : too tight again.. what laa.. that's because we had a wonderful dinner k..

at last, bought nothing. *grins*
btw, me without braces nor retainer!! :)

kesian the guys la.. so headed to have a karaoke session but then they only have dinner package which cost RM 46/pax. @.@ suen la. guess it's not our day..

jalan2 around spotted a mermaid :

how can she stand ar? sitting there motionless for a couple of hours.

that's it for my saturday.. it's sunday today.. time flies. :(
time to catch up with my dramas..

bye!

IT'S FRIDAY AGAAAINN!

2009-03-20T19:47:00.003+08:00

YAY.. i cinta friday so much!! <3

after a hectic week of work.. time to get some rest and pamper myself.. :p

i'm soooo stuffed right now.
all thanks to my lovely dovey boss belanja us at Road House Grill today..
i tell you man, working in this company is all about eat eat and EAT..
I felt so bad that the food we ordered were way expensive than our boss. lol..
we ordered grilled lamp chop, chicken chop, mixed grilled whatever chop is it etc while our boss only ordered burger with a mineral water..
the bill was a bomb wei.. we felt so guilty.. hehe..

watever it is.. tomorrow is saturday. yuhoo!!
going to meet my baby now.. :p
tata~~

Book Review

2009-03-17T21:08:00.005+08:00

yea. i do read book SOME times. lol..
so, what book i've read, or perhaps still reading..

MEN ARE FROM MARS, WOMEN ARE FROM VENUS

yaya, i know i'm sooo outdated..
what la.. no time ma..
since i know i'll be going Concorde Hotel, Shah Alam today, so i rented this book to kill my time there. lol.
btw. the desserts there are pretty awesome!! made me a happy girl today. :)

i've finished reading 2/3 of this book, and i found it rather interesting and accurate? lol.

there's this part 101 WAYS TO SCORE POINTS WITH A WOMAN.
nah, won't be listing all the 101 ways la.. don't worry. I'll only list those that will turn me ON or perhaps make me go uh-la-la. lol..

Upon reaching home find her first before doing anything else and give her a hug. - the first thing that pop into my mind is where my SO hug me from back while i'm on my apron. sweet giler!
Bring her cut flowers as a surprise as well as on special occasions.- 'm not greedy, 99 roses will do. :p
Validate her feelings when she is upset. - dun judge whether she's really upset or not. validate it!
Compliment her on how she looks. - women love compliments ok!
When she talks to you, put down the magazine or turn off the TV and gives her your full attention. - hardly men will do that lo. if you know who will, let me know!!
If she usually washes the dishes, occasionally offer to wash the dishes, especially if she is tired that day. - believe it or not, my dad does that!!
Give her four hugs a day. - only applies after married la, where possible la 4 times a day. :p
Call her from work to ask how she is or to share something exciting or just to tell her " I LOVE YOU".
Wash her car. - awww..
Wash your car and clean up the interior before a date with her.. *double awwww*

i'm very tired plus sleepy now, shall continue tomorrow ya.. night night~

Wishes

2009-03-15T18:24:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BELATED 21ST BIRTHDAY TO CHIEW YEE!

may you have all your wishes come true
stay happy & healthy always
friends forever ya.. hugs..

i've been studying for the whole day today. hopefully i can pass my piano exam tomorrow la. and shit! now only i remembered my college results will be out tomorrow. SIGH!
wish me luck..
i need them ALOT!

super tiring!

2009-03-12T22:21:00.002+08:00

addicted to Beyonce - Helo

beautiful song!
savior of my super tiring days.
these few days woke up around 5am and slept for 4-5 hours only. man, i looked soo 'chan' and old now.. :(

seminars were held in Cititel these 2 days.
the food there are suck to max!
some tasteless, some too diabetic, some too diluted etc.
desserts really disappointing lo.. SIGH~

'm going to bed now.. sooo sleepy.

bless the burung gagak.. may you continue indulging yourself in your world full with hatred and perasan-ness.

bothered

2009-03-06T22:46:00.002+08:00

i was soo irritated by my boss today..
nearly wanted to confront him in email but i seriously don't have the guts.
here it goes..
my new colleague is not that IT savvy, hence boss was kinda annoyed by teaching her over and over again about the same thing.
so, he said he teach me lar.. when she's stuck again, call me to teach her..
it these two days, this colleague of mine non-stop bugging me..
i was more than willing to help her at first, but after constant guiding and stuffs, she'll still get stuck some how.
nvm.. be patient la..
she then delegated me some task to help her out.
later on. i did some minor mistakes and i told her about it, she also nodded and agreed with my solution.
but then, WTF, she went and report to my boss on my mistake. fuck lo..
if you don't agree with my solution, fucking tell me la.. i'll go amend it..
why wanna talk bad behind of me? fucktard!
then me kena from boss la.. i was really stunned lo.. infront of me, 'jinny~~ come here baby~ so sweet la you~~'
gross ok..

i know she's pissed of me because she's being insulted indirectly by boss.
but hello, is tat my fault? you think i love to teach you ga? over and over again some more.
and worst thing is your pay is 4 times more than me ok..
and i'm like doing half of your donkey job?
if i damn mm song, i can just quit and throw back all the shits to you okay!

and because of you, i kena again from boss,
the seminar is on next wed and the materials are still not ready yet.
obviously it's not enough time for us to courier there since monday is a holiday.
so, boss was quite pissed and blamed both of us for fooling around and doing last minute work.
HELLO BOSS, PLEASE GET THE WHOLE PICTURE RIGHT FIRST BEFORE FLAMING AT ME OKAY..
IT'S NOT MY PROBLEM FOR DOING THE WORK LAST MINUTE.
I DIDN'T TOUCH A SHIT ON IT.
DON'T FLAME ME FOR SOMETHING THAT I'M NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR OK..
I'VE DONE MORE THAN WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO DO..
DON'T FLAME ME FOR NOTHING PLEASE.
I DON'T MIND IF I'M THE ONE WHO CAUSED THE DELAY, BUT DID I?
I WORKED SO HARD TO PLEASE EVERYONE, BUT WHAT I GET IN THE END??

interest arising

2009-03-05T21:24:00.003+08:00

my current job is getting more and more interesting recently..
and therefore, my thoughts on resignation is diminishing.. lol..
see, told you i'm tahi-tahi chicken.

lol. nolar.. there's a reason behind..
there's this colleague of mine which is quite new couldn't really catch up with her job.
hence, boss delegate some of her jobs to me in order to help her out la..
i get the chance to login to the system,
learning how to generate certs, attendance list etc from spreadsheets
getting the materials to be printed, arranged, packed and couriered.
source for books
get in touch with suppliers on phone (i love being looked for on the phone wei! wtf, i sound like some old desperate spinster. lol) it somehow makes me feel that i'm still significant to the company. :p

seriously loving&enjoying doing all these though i'm preoccupied the entire day (better than whole day sitting there doing some ~~useless~~ simple punya thing la.)
looking forward to office tomorrow like it never happened before. :p

till then,
night night~~

Love Matters

2009-03-01T22:42:00.003+08:00

goodbye weekend, hello new week!

tomorrow going office again.. in dilemma now.. should i confront my boss on my resignation?
frankly, i really don't have the guts..
:(

btw, last night went for a movie with Michelle, Khai tzer and Yeong Kit..
it was a last minute plan.. but it turned out to be so great.. fully occupied my lonely saturday night. lol.

we watched :

LOVE MATTERS

it was super hilarious!! i was laughing throughout the whole movie like a retard bitch!
haha.. the story line is just so-so to me la..
but the jokes are damn 9funny. compared to Money not enough, i think this is alot funnier!
prolly because i don't understand Hokkien lar. hehe..

the movie ended around 1130pm. then we met up with Kai Seng and headed to Steven's pandan indah. that place is seriously packed with seafood! any type that you crave for..
lol..
chit-chat, kap chais till 230am and balik..
woke up at 12pm today after sooooooooo long..
i missed waking up so late...

determination

2009-02-27T22:11:00.003+08:00

i'm starting to look for a new job..
from promoter to office work. lol..
i've kinda decided wanna quit my current job last night..
but some how, today boss belanja us lunch at Great Eastern mall. (he belanja us at least once a week, where to find such generous boss la..)
supposed at Cozy house but very packed so went to this thai restaurant a few blocks away.
Named 'oo cha' i think? forgot.. haha.. not lucah can d la.. great ambiance though..
during the lunch. boss made lots of cold jokes and i had a really enjoyable moment with my colleagues...
hence, made me feel damn guilty if i quit larr..

and and, i got my salary today.. though i've only worked for 3 weeks but he paid me 1 month's salary.
which made me feel lagie fukn guilty lar..
hahah.

let's follow the flow ba.. IF only i'm hired else i won't quit. recession la now...
hard to find work ma..
lol

boring day

2009-02-26T21:39:00.003+08:00

as usual went to office today. no seminar for me to attend today, hence diam diam duduk kat office jer lar..

'm still in dilemma whether wanna quit this internship not..
reasons?

cos i'm not learning anything.. not even something that beyond my studies..
refer back to my first point.
my gaji is sooooo insufficient for me to ware. planning to become freelance if i quit.. at least working as part timer is way luxurious than intern.

btw,this 3 months break is mainly for us to gain some studies-related knowledge. but i don't think i've learn anything so far other these:

discarding brochures from envelopes
updating customers' database
filling
filing up consignment notes
facing a good joker but ~~choosy~~ boss (opss.. hope he won't happened to see this)

so boring kan? KAN??
can't imagine doing these for the next 2 and half months.
oh. forgot about working onsite..
i rather him sending me to seminars loo.. at least i can do nothing there but eat. lol..
joking la.. it's very stress ok.. have to make sure everything is in perfectly order..
that day i almost left the wireless microphone in the hotel..
thank god i remembered after 3 minutes i left the hotel. quickly made a BIG U-TURN back to hotel and ahamdulilah! it's still there...
or else.. i couldn't imagine the consequences..
label me as Ms. forever blur. :p

should i quit and find another studies-related job?
maybe i'm just plain 'hangat tahi tahi ayam'?
lol. i pun don't know. label me as Ms. indecisive.
shall see how it goes for another 1 weeek ba.

today this soo sweeeet punya idiot early early called me out for lunch..
this babi reached my office an hour earlier than my lunch time.. babi right?
soo sweeet for waiting btw..
alaa alaa.. next time our turn go find you la ok.. :p

till then. good night~~

FATS FATS FATS!!

2009-02-23T23:38:00.003+08:00

ever since last week i started going for seminars in hotels on behalf of my company, my weight has increased significantly and still increasing. god damn!!

potluck-ed last saturday, my aunties and cousins non-stop commenting that i've gained weight!!
especially my butt and cheek and and my double chin is sooooo obvious now!! whaaaaaaaa!!
jacky, i wanna go on diet la!!! sushi gotta postponed ok.. lol.

babi babi!! i'm admit i'm babi jean now. all thanks to the idiot giving me such a sweet name..
sob....

today and tomorrow seminars at Berjaya Times Square hotel.. and tutt! the food there is soooo damn yummy!! better than royale bintang.. especially the desserts~~~ cheese cake!! i can't help but tried each and every type of cakes... and puddings, brownies etc.. @.@
awww... how to resist laa??? 7 days work, 5 days at hotel. morning wait for tea-break, after tea-break wait for lunch, after lunch wait for tea-break, after tea-break prepare to balik.. ish!!

btw, i had a great day today, met a new part-timer and we get along sooo fast&easily!! friendly ma me... blek.

kla.. gotta sleep d la.. today was late to hotel again, boss showed black-black punya face. me sangat takut la. haha..

goood night!!

tag

2009-02-16T22:14:00.012+08:00

finally got some time to upload some pictures.. my blog is sooo boring and dull recently.. :(
btw, today went to Royale Bintang again to replace my colleague.
today's speaker is fantastic! though i don't really know what she's talking all the time. today topic was GROUP ACCOUNTS, yea, i know i studied before.. but, who the heck wanna go remember such boring thing la right..
met a childish retard bitch today. sorry for sounding rude..
but this woman really pissed me off lo..
our company give out compliment books for early birds who registered early for the work shop. and this woman registered late and of cos won't get the book la right..
so when i was distributing the books to every1 except her. she was like so damn mm song..
she : i actually registered in early January and submitted to the HR department. so i'm consider as early birds.
me : ya, but your HR department had submitted late. sorry about it miss.. i couldnt give you the book as it's our company policy.
she : there (pointing at the extra book).. got extra give me la..
me: really sorry miss, that book is reserved for the absent participant.
she: *walked away angrily*
me: @#$#%$#%^%&^$%^#

ish! idiotic woman!!
babi punya perempuan.. you can't get your book is not my fault ok!!

fine. don't wanna ruin my mood cos of her.. overall i had a great day there.. meeting new peoples are indeed fun and challenging!!
this is me in day 1 :

after work

DAY 2

DAY 3

:p

and and, i found this very very interesting!!
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this idiot name is here!! woohooo!!
but this Ng Kok Hoong is damn fat n yong sui. haha. so bad.. :p

down syndrome home

photo curi from jacky. keke..

chelle jie b'day at 4 season restaurant.

red box's toilet

the girls

dinner at shogun buffet dinner.

till then...
good night......

shout outs!

2009-02-16T19:13:00.005+08:00

on 10 February 2009,

HAPPY 49TH BIRTHDAY MAMA!

(she's gonna kill me if she saw this. haha!)

on 15 February 2009,

HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY CHELLE JIE!

while today 16th February 2009,

HAPPY 56TH BIRTYDAY PAPA!

have so much to write yet too little energy to type. lol.. will update more on pictures whenever i'm free. :p malas wanna upload to pc.

today is my most enjoyable day since my internship started.
told ya i'll be an event organiser today right?
so today, woke up at 6am.(amazing sial) haha.
and and i tot since so early there'll be no jam gela, manatau, jam like F!
and my boss waited for me in his car for almost 20 mins. wtf wtf.
remind me bout my previous boss whom waited me for 30mins few months back.
luckily Sean John are kindhearted bosses. or else i'm fired. hehe..
then we headed to Royale Bintang hotel located at bukit bintang area..
boss briefed me on what to do, what should/shouldn't say bla bla..
my job is real simple yet filling(tummy). seriously!
first, sat on the register table and welcomed the participants
after all the participants arrived, the seminar starts..
then my job is done, then went in to the seminar room sit there and listen to the speaker.
today's topic was FINANCIAL ANALYSIS AND PROFIT ENHANCEMENT.
and it's 100% relevant to my studies.. (the speaker is a CIMA graduated with MBA btw)
an hour later, tea break! went out makan for 15mins then come back.
2 hours later, Buffet lunch! went out makan for 1hour then come back.
2 hours later, Tea break! went out makan for 15 mins then come back.
gosh.. save my fat tummy pls...
yesterday had Shogun buffet dinner then today and tomorrow buffet lunch.
if don't eat feel bad for my boss lo.. cos he already paid for me..
hahah.. some more the food are very yummy la. seldom hotel food so yummy one la.. how to resist??
so basically this is what i did the whole day. eat eat and eat..
the speaker is very very the friendly and nice.. whenever he free he'll come and talk to me.. (scare me boring kot) haha..
tomorrow going there again. yay.. buffet~ here i come.. lol..
till then..

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

2009-02-14T12:17:00.003+08:00

how's your vday going on friends?

while me, the single soul has no1 to celebrate with hence early early in the morning went to this PUSAT PENJAGAAN TERENCAT AKAL SELANGOR with jacky and aunty.
we donated some dried food and lingered around getting know the kids backgrouds etc..
it's really heartache seeing them especially the young ones..
some parents just dumped their down syndrome child there and switched their mobile number.
heck! aren't you human? for god sake! Karma soon will chasing after you dear.
i'm sooo sleepy now.. zzzz

what an unproductive v day..

since this year aren't any lover for v day..
shall i get something for myself instead?
yes.. i should..
till then...
oh oh, did i mentioned on how's my internship going on?
well, it's going on smooth and i can't wait for next monday. yuhoo! gonna be an event organiser. can't wait..

wonder

2009-02-08T23:16:00.003+08:00

wonder why parents sometimes are so over conservative towards their daughter than their son..
sigh...
had an emo-chat with mom just now.. yes emo, i cried again. :p
we were happily chatting in my room at first, then suddenly bro's brought his gf back and they dropped by at my room and say Hi.
then the drama begin..
i said why gor can bring his gf back with his room's door closed without being questioned??
while me.. on the other hand, 2 days ago being questioned and demanded to leave my door to be opened.
what the... fyi, there were 3 of us in my room (2F1M).
ridiculous right? what can the 3 of us do in my room?
it's quite hurtful that i'm being distrust by my parents. sigh.

out of a sudden..

2009-02-06T23:07:00.003+08:00

my mom just told me that tomorrow there'll be 3 students coming for tuition..
and i'm their teacher..
what the... mom, now only you tell me ar? some more starting at 9am. @.@
i where got time to prepare la..
form 1 some more.. all the terms that i studied in my high schools are in Malay la mom.. i need time to adapt to English term..
currently i'm teaching another 2 classes which are stardard 5. and yes! i'm having minor difficulty in their terms.
some more form 1 leh.. if cannot answer very malu one lar.. >.< and cannot blow water with them.. unlike last time in subang.. it was tough yet FUN teaching the lower primary.
they can made you laugh till your pants dropped! lol.. seriously!!
missed the kids man.. so emo when i told them i wont be teaching them anymore.. they kept asking why teacher? is it we not good? when teacher coming back??
i tell you, my tears ar.. really beh tahan la.. quickly turned back and wiped it off..
sob sob.. told you i'm emo..
then after classes, i overheard my students kept asking my boss why i don't wanna teach them.. sigh...
i really have a sudden thought of continuing my contract that time..
but...... :( i have no choice..
though my fridays were tied with them for 1 year..
though i've missed lots of outings after class on fridays with friends..
though i've spent almost 3 hours for the 2ways journey in ktm.
though i've skipped some of the classes on friday just to teach there.
though it's not a luxuries pay.
yet, i didn't regret for signing up the contract..
i've learned alot from there.. it's a priceless experience!
love you children....
i missed them calling me teacher jean.. awww.. emo emo..

kla.. gtg d.. get my ass ready to face new challenges tomorrow..

Attitudes Of A Leader

2009-02-04T12:31:00.003+08:00

Always wanted to blog something inspiring till i found this from a Buddhist book.
it's so meaningful and would like to share with all of you.

Attitudes Of A Leader
Blessed is the leader who is AWARE
of all that is HAPPENING
withOUT and withIN him

Blessed is the leader who not only
SEES but also LOOKS
HEARS but also LISTENS

Blessed is the leader who knows
WHERE he is going
WHY he is going
and HOW he is going

Blessed is the leader who knows
no DISCOURAGEMENT
who presents no ALIBI

Blessed is the leader who knows
how to LEAD without being DICTATORIAL

Blessed is the leader who knows
how to be FIRM yet GENTLE

Blessed is the leader who knows
how to develop LEADERSHIP
while LEADING

Blessed is the leader who knows
for the good of most CONCERN
and not for PERSONAL
GRATIFICATION of his own ideals

Blessed is the leader who has
his head in the CLOUDS
but his feet firmly on the GROUND

Blessed is the leader who
considers LEADERSHIP AN
opportunity to SERVE MANKIND.

(AUTHOR : UNKNOWN)

an appreciation to my small QQ

2009-02-02T21:26:00.002+08:00

If you do follow my blog, you should have read the post on my parents fought and ended up with a cold war. remember not?
ish.. so fast forgot.. kla. click here la if wanna refresh :p

so, few days back i received a comment from my small QQ (mom's youngest bro) :
(i didn't know he'll read my blog. so suprised! lol)

Though it is just a normal dairy or blogging... but it has touched my heart deeply, indeed...

I know your mum, your dad, but not much about you... though you have been calling me QQ for 20 years...

What a simple sentence, "sorry dear, i'm late..", how many wives in this world knowing this sentence, how many wives keep this sentence in their heart for their entire life... I could say most of them! 90% dare not to speak out, voice out to their so called lovely husbands!

A sweet sentence can end up with a memorable candle light dinner or a surprised gift.

My dear May Jean, I am glad to see you have grown up and mature now... Listen to me, be the 10% not the 90%, knowing is not enough, speak this to your future husband no matter how bad the situation is...

Have you ever thought that you could be their moderator? Have you said any words when you saw this to your mum or dad?

Cold war or candle light dinner? Choose one. Hope that you will be the best wife to him!

With loves,
Small QQ

when i read this, i can't help it but cried. i know i know. i'm so emotional. lol..

Q, you know what. though it's just a short and precise comment, it really cheered up my day!
though i've been calling you QQ for 20 years, but it seems like we're just like hi-bye relatives, okay, maybe more than that. :p i still remember those days we named your room as Kara-ok room and that's our playland. lol. ever since you start working in Penang, we can only see you during some big occasions. :(
and now you're thousands miles away from us, at Saudi. really hope to see you soon. if you don't come back and see us, don't blame us for flying over there. we mean it! lol. ok, i'm joking. :p

ok, back to topic.. ya, i've grown up as a matured lady now! no more a small little girl okay QQ.. lol.
i couldn't promise that i can be th 10%, but i'll definitely try my best not to be the 90%. and
i will try my best to be my parents moderator too.. though i doubt i can do it best since i'm a timid kind of person. no balls punya. hahaha..

The consequences of choosing :
candle light dinner = both of you will be ended looking for a new solid bed. if you get what i mean. haha..
cold war = cold war la.. you don't choi me, i don't choi you. haha..
choose one..

kla. gtg now.. goodnight!

A Day out to orphanage.

2009-01-31T19:33:00.003+08:00

happy day 6th of CNY everyone!

finally i got some time to update my blog.. been really busy during the entire week.
let's see what' i've done in 2009 cny.
Day 0 - had family reunion dinner at my house.

Day 1 - since my dad's kampung is at KL. so we went back in the morning, us usual greeting everyone and get ang paos. some strange thing happened that day, my dad was randomly capturing around, and then suddenly he captured some unusual 'figure'. i don't know should i named it a human not, cos it has a human feature, but it's kinda blur and it looks like my late grandpa.
creepy huh.. okay, then we headed to my aunt's huge bungalow and start our 21 marathon. babi sial.. kept losing.. lost around 20 bucks again. ish ish..

Day 2 - which was the day i awaited for, balik my mom's side kampung which is at KL again. this time my lovely bro, Ryan and cousin, douglas brought their spouse back.. hu hu.. i can imagine few years later.. love birds are all around popo's house. lol.. p/s: jacky, our turn next okie? wakakak.. went pavilion for some shopping after that.

Day 3 - my future employer, John Pang called me for an interview. i'm still considering wanna take up this intern not.. fuh.. damn jual mahal. haha.. night time went to this night club call Bintang Palace with Chiew Yee. hmm.. a very good experience though..

Day 4 - had a company annual lunch at Sunway Pyramid TGI Friday. having lunch with my bosses and colleagues are indeed a very good way of mengeratkan hubungan. really happy meeting them as part of my life. :) later then went to Universiti Malaya to REMOVE my braces which i've been wearing it for more than 4 damn years! happy happy~~ i'm a braces-less girl now!

Day 5 - went to subang jaya to complete my last day of employment. i bought so many candies, chocolates, vitagens my students but most of them did not turn up. damn disappointed wei.. cannot meet them for the last day. i seriously enjoyed teaching there, but it's soooo far la..
p/s: boss, if you open a new franchise at ampang, do give me a ring. hehe..
later then went to popo's place for my all time favourite 'ham cha'. yum yum~~
oh ya- did i mention that my manager at subang jaya is Sean. and my future manager is John. so when add them together. it'll be Sean John!! lame i know. hehe..

Day 6 - which is today.. i drove all the way to ss2 myself wei.. so damn proud of myself.. but i got sesat half way la.. thank Ken for rescuing me. lol. then met up with the rest at LDP. reached the orphanage, Siddhartan centre around 12 plus. the kids there are sooooo adorable! did lots of activities there. but no pictures taken by me. have to wait for the cameraman of the day to courier to us. and thanks bryan(hope didn't spell your name wrongly) for leading me back. in short, it was really memorable and touching seeing them. wanna give a bighug to sherly the organiser who prepared this meaningful event from head to toe and made it sooo successful..

that's it la.. though i don't really have the feel of CNY nowadays. getting older kott.. time really flies wei..

till then.. have a wonderful weekend!

Gong Hei Gong Hei!

2009-01-25T21:32:00.002+08:00

it's been a looong time didn't update my blog..
have been busy with stuffs that i've longing to do..
such as, clean up my messy room, hair makeover(doesn't suit me though, ish!!), paid my saman, window shopping at MV, groceries shopping at giant, made cookies and pineapple tarts etc..
and today.. cny eve dinner is held at my house..
so helped my mom to cook, clean up the whole day..
relatives are at my house now.. and me pulak hide inside the room. haha.. what la. boring ma.. takde cousin yang boleh teman me.. either they're too old or too young.. ish ish..

nothing much to say d.. so, just wanna wish everyone here a

HAPPY HOLIDAY AND HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
MAY YOU AND YOUR FAMILY HAVE A PROSPEROUS OX YEAR... MOOOO~ MOOO~~

Free from Hell

2009-01-21T23:09:00.002+08:00

I'M OFFICIALLY FREE FROM HELL!!

HOOOOOOOORAY!!

PLEASE DON'T CALL ME TO TOUCH BOOK FOR AT LEAST 4 MONTHS OKAY?

hahhaa..

though i did not do well in most of the papers..
but screw it la.. it's over. it's over! it's over!!!! it's over!!!!! it's over!!!!!!!

bye!

2 left.

2009-01-17T16:22:00.004+08:00

yay.. 2 down and 2 more to go...

and i'm like it's overed d.. slept for the whole afternoon to recharge energy. then woke up watch Gem of life.. slacked around until now..

hehe.. i can't wait for it to over la..
i got so many stuffs to do..

i wanna go groceries with mom to get all my favourite stuffs and snacks.
i wanna go for facial to get all my congested whiteheads/pimples that accummulated these few days sucked out..
i wanna go SHOPPING!! haven't get my undies for CNY. no new undies on cny where can la! teee.. shy.. :p
i wanna go cut hair, dye hair, straighten hair...
i wanna meet up with all my kawan-kawan that i've lost contact.. i feel so bad always say 'jom, let's meet up one day!' and it took forever for my that day to arrrive.. SIGH!
what else ar? oh ya! i wanna clean up my super messy room..
oh ya.. i wanna be a begger to beg for a job for my internship.. no one wanna employ me lar... ish ish.. fated kot.. so no need work, can have 3-4months break.. how fucking nice ar? haha..
so far that's it la..
oh ya.. and gotta catch up my Heroes season3!! prison break season2!! gossip girl season2!! my dear VIPs that promised me to save for me pls don't forget ok.. lol.. :p

drama time now.. bye!

1 more day to go.

2009-01-14T23:44:00.004+08:00

currently listening to Jesse McCartney - It's over.

tomorrow is the last day of study week..

so sick of studying now. just feel like giving up everything and just chuck out whatever i know in exam..

~~Friday - English for Management~~
~~Saturday - Finance~~
Monday - Performance Management
Wednesday - Organization Management and Information System

please don't fail me k.. i just want a pass.. it's more than enough..
if can i still wanna maintain my CGPA above 3.o. which is impossible now i guess.. sigh..

GOODLUCK TO ALL MY FRIENDS WHO SITTING FOR EXAMS TOO.. ^^

Not a very good day.

2009-01-13T23:44:00.002+08:00

it's supposed to be a very good day today..
we had a great(at least for me. :p) 3 days 2 nights study group at villa angsana, again. although i slept most of time there instead of studying.. :p
what la.. the environment is superb ma.

so today is our last day of staying as I'm bond to help my mom in teaching part of her tuition. while going back stopped by and had our lunch.. guess what.. my all time favorite paper which loves me so bloody much visited me again.. yeah.. saman.. wtf..

he was right in front of me while writing that blooody saman. i keep rayu-ed him to give me a chance la bla bla.. almost cried out gela.. but tahan only.. but he said 'sudah tulis dah'

&%&&*&%%$#!!#$#$@#$%

sigh.. after he went off, i cried out in front of my friends. omg.. so malu.. it's just a saman liew may jean!!

i cried not because he don't give me another chance. i cried is because of i can't believe myself that i kena saman again (god knows how many times i kena 10?11?12?) more than that i guess. fuck.
&& i know i sure kena 99 from parents.. everytime i kena.. mommy will never comfort me. she will instead over and over again recite all my mistakes that i will never learn. it's hurt..
while dad, same thing goes on.. if i asked him to help me to settle my saman. he will like 'you think i'm so free to help you ar.. everytime also kena saman. next time....bla bla bla' but at last, he will still settle it for me.. that's the good thing about my dad.. soft hearted.

btw, this time i chose not to tell my parents about it. why? not because i'm scared of their rants. it's just not a right timing today.

here goes what happened just now.
dad's accidentally locked his carkeys inside his car with the engine on.
so he called mom and find for the spare key. searched the whole house but couldn't find it.
i accompanied my mom to pick up my dad.
when we reached there, mom non-stop ranting and spouting at my dad's mistakes..
in my heart, 'mom, dad is very tired, imagine after work still gotta attend meetings. he were rushing for it and accidentally made this mistake. everyone made mistakes right?'
if i were my mom, the first thing i will do when i see my husband is to give him a hug and say "sorry dear, i'm late.."
instead of over and over again repeating his mistake which will never change the whole situation.. in fact, it worsen the whole thing.
my dad ended with a sentence like "you don't like me disturb you is it now? then next time i don't call you la" ending with a cold war.
this don't worth a shit.
sigh..

till then.. goodnight..

My dear menstruation

2009-01-09T16:51:00.002+08:00

Hi my dearest menstruation of December 2008, where have you been? you have been delayed for around 2 weeks do you know?
you are very punctual most of the time, even if you're late, it's just mere 2 or 3 days..
why??? i know what you guys thinking.. 'jackpot' right. wtf.
yea.. i think so.. and the daddy will be Mr. Potatoes, Mr. Cadbury, Mr. Twisties, Mr. Coco crunch and cornflakes plus Mr. Green Tea. *oh. i love green tea soooo fucking much lately* and the list goes on. congested with all kinds of junkfood.. wtf wtf..

my tummy is sooo bloated now.. got the feeling that she is coming. but still no sign of showing up.. i even brought half pack of Laurier (consists of pantyliner, day use type and 27cm long night type)to alor star just incase they don't sell laurier. haha. just joking.

argh.. exam is just in a week time. i'm sooo not ready..
i can't wait for it to finish.. and there comes my half year break before starting to face all the holy shits again..

ciao now.. bye. enjoy your weekends ppl.

back from Alor Star

2009-01-05T22:27:00.002+08:00

note, it's Alor STAR.. not alor setar anymore. :))

came back on Sunday evening.. it's was an enjoyable journey despite it took hours and hours to reach (6hours to be exact). maybe due to the spacious 3-seated bus.. seriously damn comfy.. hehe.. Wedding dinner was alright. Bride is beautiful, bridegroom is good-looking and not forgetting the bridegroom's sister is gorgeous too. *ahem*. haha.. drink and drunk sessions again being conducted. blacklabel, chivas, carlsberg etc. i drank few cups and my face was like a rotten tomato that going to explode. wtfness. haha.. really salute the drinkers.. ahem.. you know who you are.. haha..

back to college today.. and heck it's our last midterm test.. obviously we only start flipping our notes last night.. soo.. screwed it la.. it's just fukn 4 marks out of 100 in our finals.

10 more days to finals.. and what am i doing now? wtf wtf..
i don't wanna have any outstanding paper
i don't wanna resit or repeat any subject
i don't wanna study during my internship
i don't wanna pay for my resit paper
i don't wanna restudy any subject
i don't wanna be demoted
i don't wanna don't wanna fail!!
i know i did not put any effort in the entire sem,
i know i have been procrastinating for the entire 13 damn weeks
i know i have been skipping 60% of the lectures. (and the remaining 40% i was either daydreaming or talking)
i know i did not put studies as my priority nowadays
i know..... but sigh.. times will never turn back..
i shall fully utilize the remaining 10 days to forbid me from failing.
please bless and guide me through this exam my dear Buddha.
i'm getting very stress and weak.. i really need Your support to keep me going on.
Sadhu sadhu sadhu...

HAPPY 2009

2009-01-02T00:48:00.002+08:00

gosh.. has been abandoning my blog for some time..

was damn busy this week..
assignment submission
trip planning to alor setar
countdown celebration
family's dinner etc etc
oh oh not forgetting my shopping day at Midvalley..
fuh.. not gonna show what i've spent on as i received lots 'bai ga' feedbacks from my surrounding. :p
and btw, me and mom had signed up for a Assata facial treatment at MV. *got brain washed* :p
so today we syok syok pegi Amcorp mall and done a 3 hours++ facial.. damn bloody worth the money lo.. highly recommended! and my mom got addicted and made another appointment for the both of us. yipee!!

how's new year's celebration every1??
for me. it was no different from last year. celebrated at friend's house. they drink and get drunk,
ma-in police and killer, 21 etcc.. played until 4am the next morning.. fuck tired..
the next day pulak early early facial appointment.. made me look 10 damn years older.

and tomorrow, i mean later, will be leaving to Jitra, Alor Setar to attend Michelle bro's wedding. a 3 days 2 nights trip.
exciting!! a great trip to relax ourselves before start preparing for finals.

so. will be MIS for 3 damn days!! bye..

goodnight!! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE.

Day out at Pavilion.

2008-12-28T11:48:00.006+08:00

yesterday was mommy's card swapping day.. lol..
i'm soooo 'bai ga' this time..
wanna see how 'bai ga' am i??

wait la.. got story to tell...
yesterday i was damnn fukn lucky lo..
we were shopping in Parkson.. then me and mom went to different fitting room. after trying on the clothes, mommy asked me to go her room to see her kepoh.. so i went la.. brought all my shopping bags along and ciao..
after changing, went out to return the baju and we continue shop for our baju.. after choosing hard, me headed to fitting room as usual(another new fitting room).. in the fitting room, received few calls from Jacky and Michelle.. chatted happily with them.. puas puas finished chatting and trying.. i pun dah nak keluar dah.. take all my shopping bags and WAIT!! WHERE'S MY BAG??????
(i usually hang my sling bag on before trying on clothes) FUCK! my balls shrunk instantly and rushed out from the fitting room and headed to the previous fitting room before me ciao-ing to my mom's room.
obviously it's gone after 20minutes leaving there.. some sales girl came by and asked what happened bla bla.. and asked us to go the customer service.. in my heart.. gone case gela.. ic, driving license, atm card, car keys, house keys, new esprit bag, cash..... sobb...
when we reached CS, thank god they said there's a sales girl found and handed it to CS.
WHAT A RELIEVED MAN!! wanted to thank the sales girl but she went for her break. :(
and thank god for letting me to meet such an honest person.. Sadhu sadhu sadhu..

fuh.. lesson learned.. no more second time i swear. lol..
kla.. wanna see what i've shopped??

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not exclusively mine ok.. included mom's too.. but majority are mine la. keke.. :p
got ourselves an esprit membership card today too. ^^

coming Wednesday will be@Midvalley/The Garden!! yuhoo..

random pic of the month.

a night out to Pavilion to catch The Bolt.
the 3D glasses is fucking annoying!

couples?? lol. doug ganas sial.. bbq night at my room.

love you guys.

jac got jealous.. lol

cis.. belah la you.. don't act pity.. :p

shooo la you. i love girl now.. :p

we were high i guess. haha

our lovely kakak.. can click with us..

nice right? done by me.. hehe.. *proud*

christmas night@jac's crib.

lastly, proudly present
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yuhoo!! jumping high.. :p

kla.. very the long post d.. bye!! have a nice weekend and happy holiday!

2008-12-26T22:06:00.003+08:00

finally today i had a bonding session with my beloved finance notes.
i seriously don't know a shit about it since day 1 lecture/tutorial.. i swear.. except on the part where we did our assignment.. lol.
so, finally today i know how to operate my abandoned-long-time-ago financial calculator which cost us 100bucks just for that damn subject. so proud of myself k. :p

haha. btw, HAPPY BOXING DAY TO EVERYONE!!

i've been wishing almost in every posts lately. lol..
yesterday was Christmas.. my family don't really celebrate Christmas.. so yea.. takde present terima.. sad..
christmas eve had a bbq session with some friends.. didn't had anything as i'm damn muak with bbq-ing. so we just kepoh around until 1am plus and headed to Oldtown for next round.. again, reached home at 3am.. 2 days in a row back at that time.. kena screwed99... sigh...
gotta gain my parent's trust back..

the next day went to my aunt's place who celebrating Christmas.. this year wasn't that happening as most of the relatives weren't there. but with my beloved cousins around, it won't go anywhere wrong.. :)

anyone heard of Avril's new album ALL YOU WILL NEVER KNOW?
Is it downloadable now?? i can't download it.. sob.. please share with me the link if you know where to get it ok.. sharing is caring.. lol..

till then.. bye!!

Ho Ho Ho!

2008-12-25T12:47:00.002+08:00

Happy X'mas everyone!!

share the joys of this wonderful season and have fun with your family, loved ones and friends! ;)

i'm soooo into this bloody cun song by secondhand serenade:

STRANGER

You call me a stranger
You say I'm a danger
But all these thoughts are leaving you tonight
I'm broke and abandoned
You are an angel

Making all my dreams come true tonight

till then.. merry merry christmas!!

Shout outs!

2008-12-24T17:38:00.004+08:00

ho HO ho!! Merry Christmas Eve to everyone!!!

&&

Happy belated 20th to Mr. Ali Baba Wong Yeong Kit!!

haha.. sorry la.. yesterday teman-ed you whole day d.. no time to wish you here ma.. wonder do you actually read my blog. :p

ala ala.. know you very the strong la.. :p

really hope you had a great birthday yesterday with our accompaniment. don't always think that no gf will be very lonely la.. got us teman you ma.. :p gf everywhere also can find la.. but friends like us wo.. where to find?!!! right right?? haha..

so yesterday after class went pyramid's bbq plaza to celebrate.. makan makan shopping shopping until the shops closed. then headed to lookout point for a drink and cake session. oh ya.. we saw Amber Chia at pyramid.. i really couldn't recognize her at all..really wtfness skinny.. like some kind of transvestite. opss.. no offence.. but...... she really damn skinny la.. ok ok. enough of her..

took lots pictures but not with me yet. will upload once i got them all. reached home around 3am and slept off like babi. haha.. damn tiring..

ps: yuhoo!! boss approved my leaves. 4 damn fridays will be free from chaos. lol. just kidding. i will miss my boys very much!!

silent night~~ lonely night~~

any1 going for countdown celebration have fun yea.. bye!

Happy Dong Zhi!

2008-12-21T23:28:00.003+08:00

Happy Dong Zhi to every1 who celebrating!! which mean CNY will be in a month time.
fuh.. damn fast..

had a great shopping day today.. went 1utama with mommy.. happiness!! hehe..
so syook shopping with mom.. can buy without looking at the price tag.. lol.. just kidding..
i got myself a top and a sandal.. :)

so much things so shop yet so little time.. gotta rush back to grandma's house for big day celebration.. nvm nvm.. more to come... keke.. so tired la.. till then.

goodnight!

silent night

2008-12-20T00:13:00.003+08:00

Currently listening : Live Your Life - T.I ft Rihanna
Without You - Hinder

fuh.. another week gone.. 3 more weeks will be sitting for finals and yet i've learnt nothing so far.. i really mean it.. omis - kill me pls, my memory power sucks to max! pm- i've lost long time ago. finance - wtf is it? omg.. i'm so dead. eng - ok la. most passable sub.

btw, today is a happy day.. as usual went to work after classes.
why happy? because i finally had the courage to tell my boss that i wanted to quit after my contract ends. yay!! i hesitated for soooo long whether wanna tell today not.
finally i had the courage.. why wanna quit?
first, i will be having my internship after CNY which i still don't know i'm employed not. sigh! he asked me to continue back after my internship. @.@ will i? we'll see. :p

2ndly which is the most crucial one, it's damn bloody wtfness far. imagine from ampang travel to subang. if it's near my house, i seriously don't mind, in fact i will enjoy this job very much lo... although i have to become a nanny all the time such as helping them to wipe their backside after poo-ing, hunting food for them when they're hungry, talk sweet sweet with them in order to call them to do their work. really like jaga bf only.. bf at least better la.. give him sweet and he'll give me what i want. lol..

today lots students absent, apparently my first class, none of them came.. sad case.. i missed my cute boys.. :( but later my boss passed me 2 students.. at first, i was kinda shy.. but later warmed up with them.. we're having lots fun!! ya.. i need time to warm up especially dealing with humans.

tomorrow will be having a monthly gathering at my house. bbq this time.. can't wait to meet you all my dearest cousins, aunties and uncles and not forgetting my lovely popo&gonggong.

till then.. goodnight!!

Faking

2008-12-18T20:06:00.003+08:00

I came across this issue from a friend of mine. Is this a flaw in relationship? When you start falling in love, you will somehow naturally faking the interest of your partner.

Why do you need to do that?
In order to appeal to your partner and get him/her interested in you?
Trying to make the conversation be livelier?
For me, I think every partner should come clean when come to daily conversation, if you feel that your partner talks about football all the time which you hate it so much. Just let him know.. you can’t fake it for long, moreover he will feel deceived if he found out you actually hated football so much.

I did came across this issue with my last ex, he’s a typical guy that loves cars, technologies, games and list goes on. Initially I tried my best to involve myself into his interest and trying to fake myself that I was actually interested in them. It went on smooth at first, but as time goes by, i started to feel tiresome and sooner, i noticed that we have no common topic if I stopped faking myself. This is sad right.. I know.. that’s why it ended.

So lesson learned, always come clean with your partner. Don’t like say don’t like la~ what for forcing yourself to like it?? Loving some1 doesn’t mean that you have to love his interest too. Just develop some new interests with your partner. However, if you still wanna involve yourself in everything your partner do, dig deeper and gain more understanding on them instead of plainly faking yourself. Trust me, Your relationships will be more intimate when sharing more interests than the bedroom. :p

Another faking issue that is very common. FAKING ORGASM. Familiar right? This doesn’t apply to females okay. It applies to men too! The most common reasons why they faking it is:

They don’t want to make their partners feel bad or they are tired and just want to end sex.

Most females say that their partners are not satisfied until their girl feels orgasm, the only way to make them feel happy and stop the exhausting procedure is to FAKE!

Plus, the woman usually finds it better to fake it than to disappoint her partner.

There are few options of faking: gripping something tightly; moaning loudly; breathing deeply; burying face into something (pillow); doing kegels or anything else at least remotely dramatic or climatic. lol.. so dramatic..

Opss, am I offending any man here? Lol. Laki-laki sekalian, just lowerkan you punya egoism abit. Try to cari out the real reasons of her faking and cari solution discuss ngan partner (muka2muka). Show her your passion and love and try to understand her.

oh btw, it sounds like i'm a pro here. i'm absolutely not okay!! i did some research on net. lol..

that's all for now.. bye!!

la la la

2008-12-14T22:20:00.005+08:00

just ignore my title ok.. hehe..
just back from sunway pyramid with bro..
i think this is the first time we went shopping together huh? just us.. lol.
sapu barang from padini concept store this round.
but most things are bought on behalf of my friends.. see i soooo not 'bai ga' this time.. :p
after jalan jalan went for dinner with bro and his friends at Steven Tea house..
a so called- high class mamak.. beside Bar celona.. food ok ok only la.. service quite bad. not recommended. lol..

first time going out with bro and his friends. made me quite paiseh as i'm the only girl.. lol..
overall had a great day although i was having bad flu that time.. keep sneezing and shivering non-stop. ish..

parents are on the way back from airport!! yay!!! miss them sooo much.. going to fetch them now.. hopefully they get me something from Australia which i doubt they will. lol..
bye!!

pocket berlubang

2008-12-13T22:38:00.004+08:00

what a title.. lol..
yeah.. i spent a lot today..
went esprit today to sapu barang... and there goes my 1 month salary.. sobb.. mom not here, have to korek own pocket. haha.. even my mom is here, i also will use my hard-earned money la.. then only i feel the pinch and appreciate them more. lol..
btw, i've bought a jacket and a sling bag.. **loves**
no picture to show la.. malas..
yesterday went to Chiew Yee's house for a sleepover then next day klcc.. too bad i was too tired and knocked off as soon as i lied down. haha.. didn't teman her chat. btw, she's coming over my house soon for a sleepover later.. hopefully i can tahan and teman her abit.. lol..
oh btw, this idiot is soooo sweet, all the way came klcc to find us.. miss us kott.. hahah.. not all the way la, don't know budak ini pegi mane to buy thing for his sweetheart.. so mistery.. haha..

felt so relieved now, all my presentations has overed.. still got 1 more individual assignment and midterm lar.. ish!!

to my dearest michelle oO..
masih ingat apa you promise aku? mane blog engkau yang still sedang renovate? you cakap after semua assignment sudah lepas you akan siapkan.. jangan tipu i ar.. haha..
dan jugak ingat apa mission kita? gambatte ok!! hehe.. muackss.

gotta go now, forgive bahasa aku yang laoya ini.. bye!!

back from holiday.

2008-12-09T21:51:00.005+08:00

yay! we are almost done with our assignments.. tomorrow will be a group presentation and the day after tomorrow will be an individual one. can't wait for them to over and then shopping spree! chelle chelle, don't ffk me ar. :p

back to our vacation at villa angsana. it was supposed to be a 2 days 1 night stay but we extended to 3 days 2 nights, for fun. lol. hereby we wish to give a big THANK to Mr. ALI BABA WONG for providing us a super nice cooling condo. that place is superb, i can online despite having any wireless or internet connection. and the connection is damn good leh.

we took lots silly pic. but most of them still with chelle jie.
here's the b'day girl of the night.

Ms. ah si.. :p

Wen xuan

special note to my dearest cousin, Jacky :
babe, i know you've been very traumatic lately.
what i want you to know that there's alot of guys deserve you more than Kenneth.
he don't deserve your tears and heartache. he don't worth a shit.
A guy who loves you so much won't ever break your heart.
moreover, he's now moving on with his ex within 1 month after the break up.
what for sobbing and weeping for a jerk that who is now happily cuddling another girl??
and stop blaming on yourself my dear.
there's no right nor wrong in the game of love.
what's worth remembering is the process regardless it's a happy or bitter one, keep them as memories as part of your growing process and go on with your life.
i know it's hard. but time heals...
i'm sure you will find your prince some day.
if he's yours, he will come back to you 1 day, if he doesn't, he never was.
but remember my dear, don't ever involve yourself in a new relationship when you're still on the rebound.
live life to the fullest now, if you need some1 to talk, just ring me k.

*HUGSS.. *

time to PARTY!

2008-12-07T13:02:00.003+08:00

i'm damn sleepy now.. slept around 4am last night.. mom came back from Bali around 1 plus, so we semangat2 whole family go KL central to fetch her and her friends. after fetching them went Jln. Alor there for late supper/early breakfast. lol..

the next day which is today, celebrating my late grandpa's early b'day.. wondering why still celebrating while that person is no longer in this world? i got no idea. maybe kind of respect? so yesterday night busy lipat-ing those 'gold paper' since mom will not have any time for it. relatives will be arriving soon. i can sense havoc-ness. lol.

later noon will be leaving to Jln. Ipoh, again for 2 days 1 night 'vacation'. lol. btw, tonight will be having a party there. very the looking forward. hehe..

and and, mom just came back this morning and ready to leave to australia in a few hours time. sobb.. so, this whole week, parents won't be at home.. saddess.. lol.

and lastly, my deeply sorrow and sympathy to victims whom affected by the landslide in Bukit Antarabangsa. May the deceased Rest In Peace. and hopefully the missing ones can be found asap. Sadhu Sadhu Sadhu. God bless.

Happy Birthday, Bro!

2008-12-06T15:16:00.003+08:00

Happy 23th Birthday Bro!

it's abit blur cos i cropped it. lol.. don't have any recent pic of us..

wishing you have a greeatt birthday
wishing all your dreams come true
wishing you have a good health
wishing all the best in everything you do..

although we seldom chat nowadays and we always do our own thing in room despite living in the same house. but, you know, i still care about you even if i didn't say it out. i remember very well how every time after i've menimbulkan masalah, and i called you, you will never fail to rush over to help me. i appreciated it alot. ever since sis had left us. you're the only sibling i have and i really wish i could be a better sister and perhaps a better daughter in the family. but i think i've fail miserably somehow. i think i'm getting emo now.. save my emo to my next post. this post should be a happy one. mom coming back today and celebrate.. yay! oh ya, i've asked my mom to buy perfume back from Bali since it's duty free, but she smsed me and say it's even more expensive.. so, bro.. sorry, your present have to postpone.. lol..

that's all for now.. gotta start my presentation slides. good day people!

strashhh!

2008-11-30T10:17:00.005+08:00

goodmorning malaysia! let's see what's more i have to face in these coming weeks.

Dec 1 - Finance assignment due
Dec 3- mommy going Bali
Dec 5 - Performance Management articles due
Dec 6 - happy 23th bro, haven't get anything for him yet. :( ; mommy coming back
Dec 8- Mom&Dad going Australia visit kai popo.
Dec 10 - OMIS assignment due plus presentation
Dec 11 - English presentation, slides haven't touch yet.
Dec 14 - parents coming back
Dec xx - Performance Management 2nd midterm
Dec xx - PM excel spreadsheet due

fuh.. i can't wait for these to over!!

oh ya, here's A PRE-SCHOOL TEST FOR all of you

Are you smarter than a four year old?

Which way is the bus below traveling?

To the left or to the right?

any1 wanna try?? haha.. answer will be reveal soon. :p

trip to Singapore

2008-11-29T11:18:00.012+08:00

i'm soo sick now.. :( yesterday was having fever while working.. damn charm.. but luckily the 'trouble' students aren't there. so i can teach peacefully. lol.
reached home took panadol, don't have any active fast, so i took the normal panadol, after a while... god damn!! my eyes were damn itchy. then they became swollen. then then it started to bumped everywhere around my eyes. damn. i looked damn scary!! like kena virus or some scary disease.

kla. back to my trip to singapore. as i said.. it was damn fun and worth ponteng classes for 3 days. haha..
let the pictures speak ba..

oh ya, i went there with my mom school's students. it was an educational trip. at first i tot it will be darn boring going with kiddos.. hahaa. but ended up.. they seriously made my trip to the fullest. especially the 2 korean girls.. they taught me alot.. yeah. they taught me..
they called me not to choose a korean man as husband cos they're no good bla bla.. then taught me how to choose husband la bla bla.. must be rich, handsome, clever, kind and strong. doink.. they seriously darn mature.. and i asked them if he's rich, he will go find other woman wo, how?? then she said ' then i will ask many many money from him then i leave him' haha.. good answer!
alot more.. really fun talking to them..
and and, i'm quite impressed with their progress in learning english. they came here since primary 3 without knowing what's A B C, but now...
gosh.. i can say their english really way better than many Malaysian. no offense but it's a fact.. and btw, they are primary 5 now. in mere 2 years. they can improve alot. damn alot i should say. why not m'sian? you know i know la.. lol
kla.. back to topic..

first day, went to Merlion park

can spot the merlion?

look at my tummy.. =.=

Jurong Bird Park

penguins

lunch time. damn huge portion. does the front right boy looks like Andy Lau?
potential play boy wei him. haha.

Singapore Zoo

white tiger

Night Safari

this is a must go! m'sia punya is nothing compared to singapore. lol.
all the tram is without any bar unlike m'sia.

2nd day, outside the resort.

mommy, me and the 2 korean girls, sally and anne

silly pose with my aunt

mommy, me and 1 of my future car. lol

Haw Par Villa

rroooooaaaarrr!

hell door

Sentosa Island
1. Dolphin Lagoon

pink dolphin

2. Underwater World

mom, me, ms. sam and sam our tour guide

me and shaza. our princess of the trip.
she's our current King bro's daughter aka. niece.
cute girl, but kinda princess. biase la.. royal blood ma.

3. Tiger Sky Tower

the merlion, taken from inside

future casino. genting better get your ass ready. lol

random. haha

4. Sentosa 4D Magix & Seontosa Cine Blast - extreme log ride.
both are a must must!!
they are similar to the Motion Master at genting. but as usual, genting's one is nothing at all compared to these. their effects are sooo the cun!
take a look here and here

5. Sentosa Luge& Skyride

Skyride.

Luge is similar to go-cart in genting. as usual..... so much different between both.
you can feel the chi kik-ness there. but not genting.

6. Images of Singapore

me and benny the potential playboy. lol

uncle ar.. pls tell me when can i get married ar?? :p

3 hao po-s.

7. The Merlion.

sunset taken from the top of Merlion.

merlion's mouth

with Ms. Reyes one of the teacher

me and aunt

and lastly, 8. Songs of the Sea

Magnificent world-class water show i can say.. impressed with their creativity and all the dramatic effects, water jets, lasers etc.

Last day, Singapore Discovery Centre

group photo!

the end. enough of visiting.. next s'pore trip must shop99. lol.
gotta start assignment now. bye..