Meaning of Friendship

Define me the meaning of friendship anyone?
I felt so moodless these few days, I might acting like I'm happy or whatsoever, but in fact I'm NOT.
Do you know why this time I did not initiate myself of approaching you and apologize like how I did last time? The reason is, I don't think I've done anything wrong. Did i betrayed or back stabbed you? or any thing against the qualities of friendship?

Why are we always fight because of small little things? We're here only for 3 damn months, isn't it better to live everyday happy than letting our anger and frustration controlling us?
Seriously, I really don't like you treating me like this. I know the more you cared for some one, you will expect more from them. When they did not reciprocal you'll mad at them like how u mad at me.

Not that I don't care your feelings, if you felt that I've done something wrong, you should tell me directly on the spot, just like how everytime you point out my mistakes. Don't accumulate the grudge until to the stage of 'what is done is DONE'.
and did you ever care about my feelings too? i DO have feelings too. what would you feel if you're trying to explain and patching back but being ignored by the other one. will you continue?

You know, I'm not as independent as you right? That's why I'm trying my best to be good to everyone but you never understand me. I do need some one care about me and let me to lean on once in awhile. I thought i could count on you, but some how, I'm afraid. I would rather hiding my fears than presenting in front of you.

No matter what, you're always my bestie. A gifted true friendship that I will never forget.

lost counting

Just came back from Noodles Inn with a bunch of AMA-ians to celebrate our passing/failing of our CIMA external paper.
I'm so blessed of passing 1 out of 3 papers.. really THANK God. I swear I really did not expect to pass any. I even forgotten today is the releasing date of our result. This shows how much I 'cared'. >.< anyhow, i'm motivated, at least a little bit. 2 more papers to go and I'm a Professional Accountant. :D It's time to set a clear direction of my future. ahem.. xp
Called back home just now, again, my eyes filled with tears when i hear the familiar voices of my family.. i really miss home.. :(

AMA-ians. Friends forever! ^^

p/s: not really in a mood now. Perhaps my previous post had caused some misunderstanding towards my friend. If you happened to drop by here again, just to let you know that me and him are just friends. From the beginning till now. Trust me, You can never be replaced by anyone in his heart. Appreciate everything, fate wouldn't had brought u guys together with no reason. :)

Day 25th

Suddenly i feel like listening to mom's voice, when i picked up the phone, my eyes filled with tears. stupid tears! so i decided not to call her at this moment, i know i wouldn't control my emotions.
I miss home.. I seriously miss home. :'(
especially when i'm alone at this moment. Loneliness kills. i tried to make myself busy, but it wouldn't last.
i think of my dad, i miss him. i missed him knocking my room's door every morning just to make sure i'm fine. all these while, i've been neglecting his feelings. His love and care towards me are unconditional but i did not reciprocal. I'm not a good daughter nor a good sister. My lil sister would had done miles better than me if she's still here. i really really miss her.. is she happy? did she miss me as well?
:'(

Day 23rd

hmm.. kinda lost count in counting days already.. listening to love/emotional songs now.
Baby I'm Amazed By You, and i think of you. I miss everything about you. I wish time could turn back to those days that i missed deeply. I might act like I don't care at all but you won't know how much i care about.

okay, back to my life.. just wanna be alone at this silent night. listening to soft music, blogging, online. Last Saturday another trip to Whitby. seriously in love with the place there. People there are so carefree. I don't mind spending the rest of my retired life there. especially the beach. my love!

1st stop, hungrey! hunt for the so called famous Fish&Chips.
taste ok ok only la.. overrated. xp


On the way up to the spooky gravestones

i heart this alot! there's more in Facebook. lazy wana upload here. xp

last Friday, Tanggo invited me to his flat and he cooked me lunch.. aww.. it's really so sweet of him.. we know each other in Celebrity Fitness through a friend. maybe for some of you, i might be abit dauntless of going a guy's flat whom i just know a couple of months. but i don't know why, i trust him. :D he's been really nice to me all these while.. seriously.. And i appreciate it alot. Thank You! :)

Spaghetti topped with bacon+sausage pasta and broccoli

Seriously nicer than i expected :D

Till then, Good night..